My teachers couldn't see it, my parents couldn't see it, my friends couldn't see it, I couldn't even see it.
If no one could see it, how was it real? Was it something playing games with me? was it someone attacking me? Or was it all just in my head?
It was all these things. It was never all the things they said it was. I never understood the movies and the depictions. I never thought it could happen to someone like me.
Well that was what i was taught to believe
TED ED talk explaining what depression is
If you saw me, you would never think I suffered. I had lots of friends, I went to the parties, I was confident, but behind my appearance, my actions, the way i portrayed myself - i was becoming toxic to myself.
This was the beginning - i didn't even realise what I was doing or how it affected me. I never recognized the signs, or how i was changing.