For one I am, for the most part, much more of an introvert. Even more so then i was dealing with my bout of severe clinical depression, which came back in part with the stress of a new school and city. I keep things to myself in a different way now. Why this is i cant be completely sure of. Perhaps it's because I get to see people more regularly I now see more value in being alone, or maybe its because as i've gotten older now need time to think to myself. Either way I would say it has greatly benefited me as a person, as well as with school it has better help me "stew" on information leading to deeper understanding of things, now my writing has yet to get the memo on this and as such, i'm the a fantastic paper writer.
I will say, my writing has definitely changed since coming to public school, for the better im hopping. Not matter what field i go into, for college i will have to write a great many papers and so i hope that my "form" has improved from even the start of the year. A certain trope i have learned of writing i have learned about myself is that i write these like im saying them, specifically, like i am giving a speech. I was in speech classses for many years while i was in homeschooling, I loved to give them but always hated writing them, I though through this year i have found that i enjoy writing papers because i can, basically, give a speech to myself that i then write down.
To speak to writing, last year in my english class there was a project where we had to write slam poetry, and as i was doing the project, i found such a love fro writing poetry. I particularly love spoken word, it doesn't always rhyme or even make sense on the first read/listen but man it hits me like nothing else. There are two artists that i draw a lot of inspiration from, Levi the poet and Hotel Books. I dont to claim to write anything near as good as theirs. I do, however, claim it to be mine.
The biggest thing i have learned form this year and this class is how people either get to focused on now and get caught up in the moment or they look to far ahead and forget what's right in front of them, when its about balance. And that's why I wonder if that's why i am a conflicted person, to remind me that there is more than just now and that right now is not something to pass over either.
full of the future we aimlessly wander hopping to find the shambles of the plans we made when we just became old enough to understand what time really meant. The future is always the cause of so much grief when we don't know how to fully live with the time of the now, aimless we are hunters without prey, searching for something to objectively call a goal worth fighting for. We are without a true purpose because we are too obsessed with finding one on our own , when we can clearly see what the real objective is... -Fischer Catlin