I CANNOT LOVE A TRIANGLE A FORAY INTO DIGITAL HEARTACHE
SATURDAY, JULY 4, 2015 // TO: C // FROM: N
I'm sorry. I have been a terrible fucking person. I hope someday we can get back to talking terms. if you want to discuss further we can, if you want to be left alone we can do that too.
SUNDAY, JULY 5, 2015 // TO: N // FROM: C
The cliche phrase, “too little, too late” comes to mind…I don’t really have anything to say to you. So being on speaking terms is not of much interest to me. It also requires trust — of which I have absolutely none for you. If you have anything more compelling or nuanced to tell me then I might consider hearing you out. But I’m not much moved by this attempt.
MONDAY, JULY 6, 2015 // TO: C // FROM: N
I didn't write much because honestly I didn't expect you to read it or respond. If you have nothing to say to me and don't think you will ever trust me enough again to be friends then I'm not sure what else I can say. Or if I should even attempt. I don't want to force myself into places I'm not wanted. I don't need to make things worse than I already have. I guess I really just want to say that I recognize how terrible I was to you. It has been weighing on me. I realize that it doesn't change how I treated you or repair any of the damage I've done, but none the less I wanted to say I'm sorry. I genuinely hope things are going well for you. and I understand if you don't want to talk to me.
MONDAY, JULY 6, 2015 // TO: N // FROM: C
Perhaps it is the overwhelming sense of distrust I still harbor for you that makes me wonder why you are contacting me now...As well as causing me to question whether or not you have some kind of ulterior motive for reaching out. But that really isn’t the point. The point is this: I don’t want you in my life. You’re not good for me. So, let’s just leave things as they have been - quiet and separate. If we cross paths let us remain invisible to one another and without interaction. Take care of yourself.