Outcome One: Recognizing and Revising Self-Talk Patterns
“I’m not good at it; that’s why I can’t do it.”
My inner critic is my biggest critic. I think my inner critic gives me more trouble than when someone else is critiquing me. For example my inner critic was used in the situation I was in last semester. When I decided that I no longer wanted to be an engineering major my inner critic was my biggest enemy, my inner critic caused me a lot of confusion and made my decision a lot harder. While I was deciding my majors it was almost like my inner critic kept saying "i wasn't good enough, smart enough, I wont last in that major. After awhile I had to understand that I'm in control of my inner critic and that I can mute her out at any moment. When I finally made my decision I realized that I was allowing my inner defender to count me out too early and that I was capable of doing whatever I put my mind to.
“I would’ve made an A if my professor could speak English!”
My inner defender would be the one I have the most problem with changing. Last semester, my inner defender would always allow me to blame others for what I could not accomplish. for example Last Semester I did not do well in Math 1040, and because I did not do well I blamed my teacher. The way I stopped my inner defender was that I told myself that if I were to put more effort into studying, going to office hours, tutoring, etc. Then I would've passed the class, and that it was my fault that I didn't passed.
“I did this, so now I need to correct it.”
My inner guide is of course my biggest motivator, it encouraged me to change both my inner critic, and inner defender when they begin to get the best of me. It keeps me honest with myself and allows me to realize where I'm going wrong and how to fix it. For example my inner guide encourage me this semester, when I started to get lazy or when I started to allow my school work get me down, my inner guide always reminds me that I have a goal to accomplish at the end of this semester and that I really don't have time to slack off. So due to the fact of the situation I'm in the semester my inner guide is a great help.
Reflection: This exhibit really helped me realized, why I react to certain situations the way I do, or make certain decisions that I make. I realized that I let my inner critic get to me a lot. So I would say that my inner critic is my default setting. I believe my inner critic is a big set back that I'm ready to turn into my inner guide. Instead of my inner critic telling me what I cant do and that I'm not capable. I want to get rid of my inner critic and make it into my inner guide, my inner guide could make my inner critic go away, and encourage and give great ideas when needed. My inner guide would definitely come in handy when I'm ready to make big decisions, for example if I wanted to change schools, my inner guide would help encourage me and remind me that I'm capable, while also helping me understand my limits. My inner critic, wouldn't even allow me to think I'm capable. Throughout this process I’ve learned how to transition out of my different self- talk patterns. For example, when my inner critic is taking over in a situation like trying to get finish a 10-page paper, it tends to get to me like “you’re not going to finish this anyway, so stop doing it” that when my inner guide steps in and will encourage me to keep going, and that I work well under pressure. My inner guide basically lets me know not to let my inner critic get to me.
Journal Entry 3/6/17: "I followed my schedule for this day as precisely as possible. But I had some moment when I went off course and spent too much time in quadrant four. For example, after my computer science lab ended at 5:30 instead if going to watch Netflix I could have reviewed my notes for at least 45 minutes before my meeting at 6:30. I also should have tried to went to bed earlier instead of watching LHHA because I have an exam tomorrow."
Journal Entry 3/7/17:" Today went more according to schedule I went to all of my classes , and also office hours. Im not sure if my nap after my yoga class was necessary or not but I didn't want to be sleepy while I try to study for my math exam on tomorrow."
Journal Entry 3/8/17:" Today my schedule went exactly as planned, my nap was necessary because i had an exam tonight, i even go the chance to make it to bed at a reasonable time."
Reflection: This exhibit helped me with organization, timing, and self-management. When I first made my schedules, realized that they weren't as detailed. Which sometimes caused me to get off schedule, or not have enough time to get done what I need to get done. So, after I looked at my Semester plans, weekly plans, Daily plans, and time management self-observation, I made ways to change my schedules to make them more effective for me. For example, I made sure I put all the "exact" times that I needed to do something, or was scheduled to be someplace. I started to map out time for which subject I'm studying, and I also, made sure I put in times for breaks so that I don't over study. A great example of this organization technique would be for my computer science quizzes they are never announced. So, because I would never know when to expect a test, I set out certain time in my day that’s specifically for computer science, which is normally Monday’s and Wednesday’s after lab. Which is also a great technique because that’s when I know computer science is still on my mind. Using this technique improved my pop quiz grades from 1/5 or 2/5 to 4/5 and 5/5. These changes I believed Improved my study habits and maybe even grades in many other classes also. I realized throughout this exhibit that organization is a big key to success in college, and even with things that may not be education related.
The above link is a link to Quizlet, Quizlet is a great resource for quizzing yourself after you've study the terms, I used quizlet for my computer science exam, because its so many terms to remember and actually write about, its easier to just use quizlet and test yourself on the terms.
Another great studying tool that I use is group studying and quizzing, I enjoy group work because if you don't understand something , the next person more than likely do know and could help you out. I use this study strategy, for all of my classes because it makes studying easier sometimes, and more fun.
Reflection: I realized that this exhibit was one of my favorites, this exhibit helped me understand the way I study, and how do I study best. It helped me figure out how to improve my studying to make it more beneficial. For example, with group studying, I realized that I enjoy group studying but it tends to turn to more of a hangout session when one person gets off topic, so for me I realized you can’t "always" study with friends because you may not get what you need to get done. But if you were to study with people outside of your friend group maybe classmates then you would tend to stay on topic because you may not have as much to talk about like your friend group. Another change that I improved on was flashcards, the flashcards were starting to become a bit boring, and I wasn't understanding what I needed to understand. So, I started to use sticky notes instead and played a matching game, it gave me more of a competition in my mind and made me want to get the right answer even more, me and friends competed doing this, to see who could get the rightest answers. I think this technique was very helpful on my exam three, which I haven’t received the grade for but as went through the exam, I could see the change from my first two exams. I wasn’t as confused and I didn’t second guess myself as much.
My post-test analysis was on my math 1020 (Business Calculus) Exam 2. I took the exam with a lot of confidence and I felt really prepared, and my scored increased a lot from my first exam. but, I made a lot of careless mistakes, interpret a lot of questions wrong and also had some calculator errors. My goal for my next exam is to decrease my careless mistakes and learn how to use to checkpoints when I think my answer may be wrong with the calculator. My teacher advise to me was to continue to look over the old exams and the review sheets, and learning activities and also to continue coming to office hours when I don't quite understand something. I'm shooting for a b on my next exam by making sure to look over my exam carefully not second guess myself but to catch those little mistakes that made a big difference in my grade. I think the best way for me to do that is to just be more patient and not look at the time as much, because that's when I begin to rush, but if I just keep a steady paste and read each question carefully I should have better results. The above pictures are examples of exam questions that I got wrong, and one question from the review sheet. The post-analysis chart shows that I made a 65 on my exam, but for example if I received all of my points for the one word problem that was 7 points I would have had a 70 which is an C.
1. What was your major in college? Attended Locke Haven University in Pennsylvania Majored in Math with a minor in Computer science
2. Why did you decide this career/position? He did not go to college right after high school, he went to a tech school for auto motives, and worked at a mechanic shop for a few years, then shortly after decided that he was ready to go to school. He went in undeclared and took a semester of pre-cal and realized that he found it interesting. So,he changed his major math and wanted to see how far he could go with because he enjoyed it so much and now he’s here teaching at Clemson.
3. What do you like best about your job? While being a teacher he is also a student, both could be fun, but teaching is best because he likes to explain and help students understand, he enjoys seeing people understand and he enjoys being a student because he’s learning new thing every day to help the students even more.
4. What are your expectations for students in your classroom? He expects students to mostly be responsible for material given, he want the students to stay on top of their assignments and ask questions when they don’t understand. He also expects all the other basic classroom rules, (no cellphones, no loud talking, etc.)
5. What subject was most difficult for you as a college student and why? They were two subjects that he found difficult the first subject was history, because he found it very boring and struggled to stay awake, but he ended up with a b in the course, the second subject would be computer networking, he found this class difficult because it was an online class, and he didn’t quite understand the concept of the class, and at the time didn’t know all the resources that were available to help with the class. He had to take the class over but instead he took it in a classroom setting and passed the class with an a.
6. What non-academic skill do you think is the most important for college students? The number one skill that he thought would be helpful for students to have was to know how to take care of themselves, like knowing how to do laundry, cooking, cleaning, basic mechanical skills and money management.
Reflection: The reason I chose professor Westerbaan as my interviewee, is because I see him as one of my best Professor, because he is very helpful when it comes to explaining problems in class, and just making the work easier to understand. As Professor Westerbaan was answering the questions I was intrigued, his answers were very interesting, I found it very surprising that he didn't go to college right after high school he actually worked at a bike shop. And that math wasn't in his interest until he went to the college and realized that it was very interesting to him. I learned that some professors understand that you have a lot of other things going on in your life outside of academics, and that they understand a lot of things if you just talk to them and be honest. I also know now that being and teacher and student at the same time gives you both experiences so it leads to more understanding. This interviewee helped me realized that some professor aren't as bad as they may seem in class. It's all about going to office hours to get to know your teacher, even if all your questions are not about academics. I think this interview with professor Westerbaan encouraged me to start going to some of my other teachers office hours more often. The interview made me want to be able to communicate with my professor and not just judge them by what they talk about in front of the class. Their more than just a “talking head at the front of a classroom.”
The assessment we did in class was all about choosing things that mean the most to you and how do they affect you rather its good or bad. The assessment also helped us understood how we could live without certain things, and how it felt for someone to take away something that you felt was so important to you but to them they felt you could live without. My first Very important section was very long, but as my list shrunk, it went down to 10, then 5, then 3, and lastly one. The picture below demonstrates how I cut down my list and prioritize what's important to me. I went from 10 to 5 because I got rid of 5 things that I knew my other five could uphold, the same results or the same feelings. For example I knew that achievement was supported by purpose because as I fulfill my purpose I'm achieving my goals along the way. I went from my top 5 to 3 by getting rid of Growth and Purpose, these two were weeded out because I felt that without God, Family, and health I wouldn't be able to grow or fulfill my purpose. And I finally got my list down to one which wasn't easy but it made me realized what makes me work hard for all the things that I value, my number one Value was God's Will, I realized that without God, my family or me wouldn't be where we are or even healthy.
Gods Will: My short term goal for God's Will would be to start going to church more and actually getting involved in church.
Family: My short term goal for family would be to start talking to sisters (half) more often. And also being able to let them go when its time to do academic related things.
Growth: My short term goal would be to begin accepting that everyone os not the growing at the same pace that I am, so some people I will have to leave behind.
Purpose: My short term goal for purpose would be to find purpose for being here at Clemson University, I want to figure out what can I actually make an impact on here. (Joining and organization, volunteering, etc.)
Health: My short term goal for health would be to start eating healthier and start taking better care of myself.
My action plan for my short-term goals would be to start with God's will. I think the best way to accomplish that goal would be pick at least two Sundays out of each month to attend church here while I'm at school and every Sunday when I'm back home. While I'm home over the summer a great way to get involved would be to volunteer to help/teach the younger children in vacation bible school. Next would be to start eating better for my health. I should start eating more fruits and vegetables with my meals. I also suffer from low iron deficiency, so I would like to getting in the habit of taking my medicine everyday. The next step in my action plan would be to work on my family value me and my intermediate family are very close, so it tend to talk to them a lot, but sometimes y family can be a distraction, so I would set up a schedule to talk to them instead of letting my calls interfere with my work. My other issue would be not communicating with my half sisters , so I would try to encourage myself to reach out to them. I will take on growth by not being afraid to let others/things go if they're hindering me. And my last step would be to purpose, I would start getting more involve on campus, tryings new things, getting to know more people.
God's Will: My long term goal for God's Will would be to gain a closer connection with God.
Family: My long term goal for family would be to be able to have a closer bond with everyone close family and distant family, but I would also like to be able to not talk to them as much.
Growth: My long term goal for growth would be to be more mature, confident, organized, and responsible.
Purpose: My long term goal for purpose would be to be able to KNOW my purpose in life and understand what it is that I would need to do.
Health: My long-term goal for health would be to not have to take no medicine daily. Just live a long, healthy life.
My action plan for my long term goal, starting with God's Will would be to become "saved" when the time is right and when I know I'm fully prepared. I will prepare by going to church frequently, and participating in different events and activities. Next would be health , I would like to have a set schedule of doctor visits throughout the year, I would also like to have a set schedule to go to the gym throughout the week, and a set amount of fruits and vegetable to eat every day. Then would be family, which i believe ties in with growth, I think having a closer bond with my family but also knowing my limits when wanting to talk to them or be around them a lot ties into maturing, confidence, and etc. My last plan to accomplish my purpose goal, would be to just like short-term action plan, just get involved, maybe volunteering at a homeless shelter , or nursing home and then finally decide what's truly right for me.
Why should being on a budget be important to college students?
I believe that budgeting money should be important to college students because college is very expensive, especially if your out-of state or not on scholarship, so saving as much money as possible is in your best interest. Because you really don't want to continue taking out loans, or continue asking your parents for money who may already pay for you to attend, or continue getting or even maxing out your credit cards.
What's The Purpose of This Exhibit?
The purpose of this exhibit is to learn how to be more responsible with money. I realized that money was a big problem for me and that I found it hard to save money. So, this exhibit was very beneficial to me to learn how to save money. And, also this problem seems to be a big in all college students, so this process may be beneficial to more than just me.
Why Can't I Save Money?
My biggest issue with saving money would be " if I got it I want to spend it all". I tend to want to eat out all the time, or shop, If I actually see my money or don't stop myself from spending it. I also tend to buy a lot of unnecessary items with my money. So, basically for me I have no budgeting skills / self control when it comes to money.
Log of Money Spent Over Three Days:
How To Fix The Problem? My plan to fix my problem is to budget myself to only spend $10 on food over a span of three days and to see if I can stick to my budget.
Reflection: This process was very helpful for me, I tend to continue spending until I have nothing left to spend, so when I did the three days with a budget it made me realized budgeting myself is not that bad. Even though I didn't reach my goal, the task still taught me how to put restrictions on myself. Since then I have been trying to stay on a budget and going to the café more often. I also have only been spending money on things that I need, from then until now I see that I have been saving a lot more money. Since putting myself on a budget I tend to not have to leave off campus as much, which allows me to stay on campus and do work. Which may seem like a small issue but it makes a big difference when you can just sit in one spot and not have to stop doing work to go somewhere, that's when you're really in the zone.
Why are Distractions a Problem?
Distractions are a problem because they tend to hinder you from what you're trying to accomplish. Distractions tend to come at all the wrong times. For a college student distractions can tend to be your biggest problem. Distractions can stop you from submitting a paper or homework on time, it can even hinder you from studying.
What's the purpose of this exhibit?
The purpose of this exam is to show that distractions are a big problem, and how to realize when you're becoming distracted. I felt that this exhibit was necessary for me because I'm easily distracted, which is a big issue when you have a lot of work to do and a lot of things to focus on. I realized that in college distractions are easy to come by, so this exhibit serves as method to decrease how easily or how often you become distracted.
What are my distractions?
My distractions tend to be my friends, family, food, and Netflix. I believe that my friends maybe my biggest distraction because we tend to always want ton hang out with each other even when one person has something to do. It's almost like you don't want to be left out for example, if there's a party this weekend and all of your friends are going but you know you have a paper due Saturday night at 11:59, you have to decide rather to go to the party and risk not turning In your paper or not turning in your best work. Another big distraction that I would consider my problem would be family, I'm really close with my family, so I tend to want to go home a lot. The bad part about this is that if I have exam coming up, I wont study while I'm home because ill want to spend time with my family.
how to fix the problem?
I struggled with this problem, since last semester so I've finally found a solution or how to at least be less distracted. I tend to do a lot of group studying , with my friends even when we're not studying the same material. So, if I begin to study alone or do less group studying , it may lead to more work getting done and my friends wont be able to distract me as much if I'm not around. For my issue with my family being my distraction , I've learned to not go home if I have an important assignment or test coming up. By doing these two things alone I believe I have less distractions and I'm able to accomplish more of my task.
Reflection: This process really allowed me to decrease how easily and how often I became distracted. Once I realized what my distractions were, and how they were affecting me it made everything easier and I was able to focus again once I fixed the issue. This process allowed me to be more focus on my academics I was able to study more and able to accomplish more of my task, which always result in better results with grades.