This Is 14.
This is fourteen. Fourteen is the age where even though you think everything will be alright it isn’t. Everywhere you turn you get questions about college, “What college do you want to go to?” and “Do you know what you want to be?” School, test grades and getting into college are the only things that matter in life right now. Every now and then all the stress builds up to a certain point where your body can’t take it anymore and you have no choice, but to have a mental breakdown.
Fourteen is the age where you’re the “babies” in high school. Every other grade sees you as little infants, but there isn’t really much of an age difference. You are capable of being as mature as a grown adult. You wonder why they doubt your expectations, but you’ll never receive an answer.
Fourteen is where your appearance matters a whole lot to you and everybody else. You wake up early only to cover your flaws that make you different from others. You wake up early to plan a decent outfit that you think others would like. What would the world be with only perfect people living in it? Stop worrying about what other people think about you and appreciate the things that are around you.
Fourteen is the age where your friend group may split up and you start to make new friends and leave the old ones. It’s funny how there are times when you’re old best friend becomes a complete stranger to you. Your friends could be changing and you could be changing. Changed for the better or for the worse. You may tell them that they are becoming different and they will not believe you.
Fourteen is cherishing the moments you had when you were in second grade. Life was simple and life was easy. Don’t deny that you miss being a kid, because we all do. You didn’t have to deal with all the stress your parents brought on you about school. People couldn’t blame you for their mistakes because it would just look silly to be blaming a little kid.
Fourteen is when you fight with your parents more than you would want to. Words just spill out of your mouth without putting any thought into it. You don’t realize, but your words hurt them as much as their words can hurt you. You’re screaming and yelling back and forth at each other at the top of your lungs and then. The room gets quiet. Both you and your parents have had enough. You walk away to your room and they stay there talking to each other in the exact same place.
Fourteen is when you start realizing money doesn’t grow on trees. You need to start working for all the money you are spending. This is the age where you realize you start buying things that you need more than the things you want.
At fourteen your only escape in the world is to listen to music. It takes you to a place where you forget about everything that’s going on around you and it’s just you and the music. You can’t deal with any of the drama that’s going between your family or your friends.
Fourteen is getting your heart broken and never knowing when it’s going to heal.
During the process of writing this multi-genre narrative was difficult at times when there was too much noise around me I just couldn’t get any work done. But, at times when it was quiet and peaceful around me it was so easy to concentrate and finish writing all my pieces. These pieces all relate to each other, because they’re all about my personal life the parts of my life where I wouldn’t even be comfortable to share with some of my closest friends. While I was writing this, words just came out and I was typing everything I was feeling. There wasn’t anything holding me back from expressing the real feelings I had towards things. What I learned about the world around me is that nothing is fair, you will come across times where you will get hurt and you will feel pain, but on the upside there are more times where you’re happy. Many people think I have a perfect life, but I really don’t and nobody else does either. These pieces resemble my life that I’ve hidden from the outside world and it has helped me understand that even though I have been through many problems I manage to keep my act together. There are times where I do have breakdowns that are uncontrollable and there’s nothing else I can do but cry. My favorite one I wrote was This Is 14, because all the paragraphs written in that piece have a place in my heart and they all include my true emotions about how life is going for me right now. It was the piece that I had less difficulty writing and the most meaningful to me.