I didn't grow up in a religious family. I had to learn a lot on my own. When Yahweh led me back into the church, I began as an usher. Each day we had service, I would have on my cute black skirt, with a nice white blouse to match and black shoes. I would be at church bright and early. I was just learning what it meant to serve in the church but I loved it. It gave me a since of belonging and accountability. I was raised late in my life around the age of 20 - 21 in a Pentecostal/ Apostolic church. I never really got consumed into this religion nor do I currently claim the religion. I am a Holy Spirit lead believer whom Yeshua rest in me and abides by his word a lone. Yes, I am a prophetic vessel but I don't hold any denominational, or man made belief. It doesn't mean all denominations are bad. No, I am just clarifying that this is my choice to live based on my experience in coming out of a religion I was involved in. I have seen a lot and I became aware of the true reality of being just a servant and a Daughter of Yahweh of Israel; a true Jew on the inside. Not external religious routines, doctrines with a heart of stone and a dirty life style.
At the time, It was a very strict environment of what you could and could not do. Wasn't use to all of that but with me being out of the world, I thought it was super impressive on how people were so adamant in being saved. I was super pumped! When I first learned about the prophetic, I was ushering for my first event. I was literally stunned on how people can tell what god is saying and be directly healed from what they were dealing with. My first experience was when I went up to the alter to get prayer, I was so scared. I felt I was going to go into a coma state when I got slayed in the spirit. The Man of God came up to me and said in my ear " Get rid of your Soul- Ties!!" I fell to the ground and started weeping and crying. I knew although I had came back to church and started serving , I still had to go into prayer to start coming against the sexual soul- ties of the men I physically slept with. Breaking up with your past relationships doesn't break the tie! Especially a sexual one with a man that is not your husband! You have to fast just as well as pray!
CHAPTER 1 ( SAMPLE )
Familiar Spirit - The outer Deception
“When you enter the land Adonai your God is giving you, you are not to learn how to follow the abominable practices of those nations. There must not be found among you anyone who makes his son or daughter pass through fire, a diviner, a soothsayer, an enchanter, a sorcerer, a spell-caster, a consulter of ghosts or spirits, or a necromancer. For whoever does these things is detestable to Adonai, and because of these abominations Adonai your God is driving them out ahead of you. You must be wholehearted with Adonai your God." - Deuteronomy 18:9-14 CJB
It was one evening I was at church. It was another prophetic revival. That night I was ushering. I was pretty upset because ever since I began ushering, I wanted to be apart of the worship services with everyone else. I didn't want to be just the person to open up the door and prepare the pews for guest arrives. However, I grew to get use to it. Before church service began, I was cleaning the pews. It was empty in the sanctuary. I turned around and seen a man standing in the hallway near the clear glass of the entry way. I immediately froze. I said to my self " Why do I feel like I seen this man before, He seems familiar " my spirit was going through hurdles to figure this out. Normally when you see someone for the first time, you have no idea about the person until you speak to the individual. At this moment, I felt like I have seen this man before. It was super weird. His outer appearance was very seductive; He looked like the type of man every women in the church would have wanted. The perfect suit, with just the right cologne and he was one of the new leaders of the church. It was his first time coming into the church and the city. No one knew him but the pastor. That night as I was leaving to get into the car, I was still looking at him through the glass door as he was just gazing and observing where he was at.
After that night, I couldn't stop thinking about what I felt. The sense of immediate connection without even saying a word. The feeling that you already know what the person is about without even saying hello. Did we meet in another life? It was like our spirit was already inner twinning with one another but we never met. What could it be?