This is my Portfolio. This is where I gained knowledge about myself. Being a teenager is hard because you still do not know what you are and how you can be successful. It has been a rough for me in college so far. First semester was a disaster. I would not go to class consistently, would forget/blow off assignments. Did terrible on all my exams. Could not figure out why I was doing so bad. To me that is my biggest fear, not being able to identify which academic habits work best for me.
Finally, I had enough. I got sick of getting phone calls from my parents yelling at me saying to keep up with school. So, I stopped going to school. Quit going to classes, was too scared to be seen. I became so wrapped up in my own world. Never asked for help either. I internalized everything. It was the darkest time of my life so far. I truly believed that no one really cared about me and that I would have to leave my house and never come back. When I came home for winter break, I had to tell my parents what happened. They were devastated and were extremely disappointed. Thinking that I had to drop out, my parents gave me one more chance to fix it. To fix my GPA this semester. My parents wanted to remind me that they believe in me and that I can be successful in college I just got to do everything that is required and I will be fine.
This semester I am going to give it all I got. Put in as much effort as I can in all my classes. I set a couple goals for me to achieve. If I do well this semester, then I can live off campus with my friends. That keeps me going every day in college. I want to be independent, do not want to live with my parents the rest of my life. Plus, my brother’s wedding is this summer. I do not want to tell people that I didn’t do well at Clemson and dropped out. That is my biggest fear.
These exhibits were enjoyable. It was a project that could boost my confidence so I wanted to put my best effort in this to build my self-esteem for future projects to come. I could reflect and focus on myself. With all the experiments and data, there is high potential for change. Thanks to Cu 1010, they helped me figure out which study habits work for me, how I can plan a weekly/daily/monthly schedule. All the tools have been given to me, now I just should follow through with it and write my own future. At the end of the day I the only one who can make myself happy. I need to stop relying on other people for success. It’s my time to take control of my destiny. Please enjoy my portfolio and listen to my story.