You have taken a part of my life away from me that I have been looking forward to since I was young, my senior year. Everyone during their senior year of high school creates memories that follow them into adulthood. All year I have been waiting until the last nine weeks where all the senior activities were planned to take place, and it seems that you have also been waiting until the last nine weeks to take it all away from me.
My senior year is ruined because of you. You have taken my last moments with my friends away from me. The last nine weeks of school was my last chance to get to bond with my friends before we go off in a million different directions. It also was the time where I would have gotten to experience for myself the senior activities that I have watched classes before mine get to experience. I now will never get to experience a senior breakfast, graduation practice, or my own senior field day. Although I have filled in many graduation practices before, I have always wanted to experience the craziness of it for myself. The rushing to make sure you are on time, lining up and practicing walking in, speaking at graduation as a class officer, so I can honestly say that it hurts that you might be taking graduation away as well.
I miss the sound of slamming lockers and getting to see my friends and teachers in the hallways. I miss being at pep rallies and feeling like I was going to get smothered when the seniors got the spirit stick.
It is obvious that I am missing my senior year, but I am also missing the little things that have been a part of my daily routine for four years now. I never thought I would say it, but I would do just about anything to walk down A hall during a class change right about now. I miss the sound of slamming lockers and getting to see my friends and teachers in the hallways. I miss being at pep rallies and feeling like I was going to get smothered when the seniors got the spirit stick.
If I would have known what I know now I would have really taken in my last moments (before school was closed) and I would have taken more time to spend with my classmates. Now that I have the chance to look back at it. I would have stopped stressing so much. I was always stressed about school work, due dates, and college preparation. I would skip out on bonding activities to try to calm my stress over school, but Corona, if I only knew what I know now I would have stopped and taken a moment to just enjoy it all. Upcoming seniors, I hope and pray for a better outcome for you and your senior year, and my advice to you is to not take it for granted because you never know when it will all end.
Corona, you are causing a lot of chaos right now. Everyone is scared and on edge, but I’m not. I have faith that God has a plan in store and that there will be an end for you. I don't know quite when that might happen, but when it does we will all come out stronger than before.
Paige Brick poses with cap and gown in her senior portrait. | Photo used with permission of Holland Studio.
I can’t say I’m happy you came around. You started pretty small and I wasn’t afraid of you at first. I thought that you would pass quickly, and then you would be on your way. Turns out I was very, very wrong.
You came, and you made your mark. Tons of people are sick and the numbers are only growing. You are so much closer to home than I expected you to be. You’ve made me scared to even go to the store. Such a simple task has turned into almost life and death. You’ve made people panic to the point of over-buying, leaving those less fortunate without.
You’ve taken away so much from me already in the short amount of time you’ve been here. You’ve taken the choir trip to New York City that I had been looking forward to all year. You’ve taken away three competitions that everyone worked so hard for. It seems that everything that might have brought me joy in these troubled times, you’ve taken away from me. You’ve even taken away the last nine weeks of my senior year. You’ve made the world a very sad place.
I worry every day for my family members who are at higher risk of catching you. Some of them have underlying conditions that make them an easy target for you. I worry for my friends that I am no longer able to see without being at least six feet apart, and even then that might not even be good enough. I worry about ordering items online because I don’t know where they are coming from or who has handled them. I worry my plans that I have later down the line will vanish before my eyes. You have taken so many away already and I just want something to look forward to. I worry about my mental health as I am consumed by the four walls that surround me and as I listen to the news every night about how it’s going to get worse before it gets better. I worry how much worse it could get.
You haven’t taken away my hope, my prayers, my dreams. My hopes that we will at some point take control of you. My prayers that my friends and family will be all right and that God is watching over them. My dreams that I will be able to have fun with my friends again without having a gap between us.
I fear that life will be so much different once you go away. What will happen to handshakes, high fives and hugs? I fear you won’t go away but will stay and torment the population forever. I fear every cough I or anyone near me has. What if I have you and I don’t know? I fear that if I don’t stay inside I will get sick. I fear that I or someone I love may die from you. I fear that I won’t get to say goodbye to the school that raised me for four years. I fear I won’t get to see my friends again. I fear I won’t get to say goodbye to my favorite teachers. I fear that my life is never going to be the same.
So Corona, you’ve gotten what you wanted. You have my fear, my worry, my anxiety. But you want to know what you don’t have? You haven’t taken away my hope, my prayers, my dreams. My hopes that we will at some point take control of you. My prayers that my friends and family will be all right and that God is watching over them. My dreams that I will be able to have fun with my friends again without having a gap between us. So my dear Corona, you may worry me, but you do not control me.
I could write a book about all the things that you’ve stole from. School, my life, my prom, everything. You came around in the worst time of year because this year was suppose to be the year that my life finally unfolds and I get to do the one thing I have been going to school for my whole life, which is to graduate. I've never been so upset about anything ever in my life but for it to happen like this is just depressing.
In the beginning, you were just a topic in school. Nobody was worried. Everything was a-okay. But, as time went you became a bigger problem, a threat even, to the whole world. You started spreading and killing people and it made the whole world close up and everything in it.
If I were to list the top 5 things to ever happen to me in my life, this would more than likely be #1. This just goes to show that you've got to expect the unexpected, even if it is the worst thing to ever happen to you. That’s life though. It isn’t fair at all so you've just got to take the good with the bad and roll with it.
I never would’ve thought that March would be my last month of high school. It is definitely a huge challenge to deal with and to face, especially cause you never know when this pandemic is going to end.
Life is not as fun anymore because everybody is “social distancing" or at least practicing it. If I were to list the top 5 things to ever happen to me in my life, this would more than likely be #1. This just goes to show that you've got to expect the unexpected, even if it is the worst thing to ever happen to you. That’s life though. It isn’t fair at all so you've just got to take the good with the bad and roll with it.
With that being said, being on this whole pandemic lockdown and social distancing thing has brought me a lot closer to my loved ones. I’ve built a lot closer bonds with family I use to didn’t even have time for and I'm loving. The whole social distancing has showed me who my real friends are and who were there just for the time being. It’s not all that bad cause I don’t really go anywhere anyway, so it's all good. Another reason is that I am finally catching up on a lot of sleep that I didn’t really get when I was in school. Being positive through the whole thing and taking it one day at a time is what is really getting me through. Hopefully I get to see all my classmates at grad because it’s the moment we've all been waiting for.
Danielle Brown, Junior/Senior counselor
As I sit here, writing this letter, I’m not really sure what I feel. We got the news earlier this week that you had officially ruined the end of the school year. You would be keeping us from going back to the place we love and call home. I’ve tried to work through what this means for me, as an adult, and the grief that I feel because of what you have taken from me. In thinking about all of this, I inevitably come back to my seniors and all that they have lost.
The fourth nine weeks, for me, is all about the seniors. I have to mentally prepare and rest up during Spring Break – the days are jam-packed and everything is a blur until the hats are thrown at graduation. But I absolutely love it. I love getting to acknowledge them at awards night. I love sharing a meal with them at senior breakfast and seeing how far they will go without a dress code :) I love watching almost full-grown adults act like kids on field day as they smear shaving cream in each other’s face. I love seeing the pride on their faces as they walk through the elementary school with hundreds of kids cheering for “the big kids.” I love seeing their elementary teachers embrace and congratulate them for a job well done. I even love the battle of getting them to walk in sync with their partner at graduation practice. And I love seeing the one that fought for every class and overcame all the obstacles finally receive their diploma. I guess you could say the month of May is a big part of why I stay in education.
You can’t take away the numerous state championships, the beautiful music made by our band and choir, or the academic success of these students. You definitely cannot take away the laughs and the relationships that were made, or the mark they have left on our school. And you will never take away the impact they had on me.
But this year, the last nine weeks will be spent at home with my family as the world shelters in place from you, Corona. I won’t get to rush around making sure everything is perfect for awards night. Or battle the post-field day sunburn. I won’t get to straighten hats and adjust stoles for students before they cross the stage. I won’t get to see our senior parents beam with pride as their student’s name is called. As hard as this is for me, I have done this before and will have the opportunity to do it again but the Class of 2020 won’t get a do-over. The last nine weeks and all it holds is forever lost.
Corona, you have ruined so much for this class but you do not define them or their time at Center Hill High School. You can’t take away the numerous state championships, the beautiful music made by our band and choir, or the academic success of these students. You definitely cannot take away the laughs and the relationships that were made, or the mark they have left on our school. And you will never take away the impact they had on me.
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