And I sit on it, praying for you to just SAY it. Take the wall down. Know what I discovered? You said it to the one who mattered all along. And I was there to support you, love you, encourage you, because I LOVE you and that means you before me, ALWAYS. You said it to the one who ninja destroyed your life, you, while I waited patiently for you to naturally work it out. You gave her the confession and honesty I'd die for-the only thing I've ever needed. And she rejected you, played with you in your most vulnerable state that she didn't even realize and where did you come, Jeff? Home. To me. You came home, to be healed, stabilized, and loved. But she's ALWAYS been first. You thought it was me choosing him, but it wasn't. There's your moment of truth. You fuck around but when it was costing you her, she's the one you got naked for. And out of your truths to her came the truths about me and they finally burned me to the ground. You are so focused on her-which, that's what you want, you should be-you didn't notice them slip. But I notice everything when it's you. I didn't get the truth I needed from you to move anywhere forward with you. But I hope I helped you grow in to your skin anyway. It was worth every tear.