Just so you know, this isn't really going to be a story. More or less.....this can be a way to reflect on my self being and understand why I like what I do and why I am the way I am. I'm trying to figure out a lot of personal things about myself and where I'm gonna be going with my current spot. This isn't so much a life story...more or less a....personal entry.
That's a picture of me. As the picture suggests, I love dogs. Best animals on the planet. I've always had a better connection with animals than people.
My dog Sparky. The boy's getting on in years now. A good dog, not smart though, he's probably gone on a good 16 years now. I wish I had some pictures of my first dog Casey, but both her and Sparky really drove home the love I have for dogs. Both were good pets for a kid, and it definitely shaped me for the future.
I never really had a bad time growing up. Being born in Houston to two parents from Chicago, they were both there, and they weren't abusive. So why can't I be alright with the way I grew up? Probably because I always grew up out of my element. I was always different from other kids, and that feeling of being "weird" has always made me stay......isolated. I feel like someone like me should have grown up in a small town style, so I was off from the get go. I still inherited a love of fishing and pets from my family, but sometimes it's hard to find everything else.
Being into computers and electronics is really the only thing I've ever really been able to call my own. Everyday I'm still learning more about it and it's the only class type instruction I actually enjoy learning, except history, but it's hard to make a career out of that. I've had a lot of time to think about my childhood, thinking how I took everything for granted. My dad always said that I should try to live my life with no regrets, but I'm already chock full of them. I've like tech ever since I was a kid, so it only makes sense, to me at least, that I would go into it.
I've never really been open about myself cause I'm always scared what people think. I was never raised with a sense of self-confidence, so I never developed one. I found solace in fishing by myself, going to movies by myself, etc.... I always think/though it was supposed to be like that, since I was an outcast. The only person I could ever really fish with was my dad, who taught me how to fish. These days, fishing is rare for me. I try to get out as often as I can, but it's hard to do someday's.