Music isn't what I do, It's who I am
"To play a wrong note is insignificant; to play without passion is inexcusable. - Ludwig van Beethoven
I cant see something happen without lacing the situation with its perfect soundtrack. Living life while constantly pretending that you are the star of a music video can defiantly get you some stares, but it adds something that is not explainable to every moment, making me cherish everyone of them. I want to be a musician and create lyrics that people can relate to, and sing them with so much passion, it captivates peoples hearts and minds. There is a lot more to music than reading and playing it, it is a feeling that makes you want to create it.
Shout out to my AMAZING webcam. I was going to re-film it on my camera, but I'm lazy :) And snapchat filters, because snapchat filters.
Passing prople on the street is, for most people, a casual affai
'WRITING IS SOMETHING you do alone. It's a proffession for introverts who want to tell you a story but dont want to make eye contact while doing it" - John Green
I myself am an introvert, and so I don't come in contact with many people in my everyday life, apart from the hooligans roaming my high school that I don't really want to be at in the first place. However, I love riding in the car, and so whenever my mom needs to go somewhere I am the first to call shotgun, and every time I see someone in passing during these car rides that temporarily pull me from my own world that only consists of my, myself, and I, I create a story for them that probably couldn't be farther from the truth. But this random person I saw on the street waiting for the train is forever etched into my mind as someone on the run, trying to escape everyone that ever told them that they couldn't do something and going to prove them wrong. They are leaving this small city behind and are on the horizon are new beginnings, in a place where everyone that ever told them they couldn't do something has to watch them do exactly those.
Love and care isn't always an equation for the word mom.
"The secret ingredient is always love" -unkown
My mom has taught me a lot in my 14 and a half years of life. But the one thing that I think I was born with is the ability to be a mom without ever actually having a child of my own. If you get a scrape or you have a headache or you cough or even sneeze, leave it to me to use my grays anatomy knowledge and my nurturing side to try and save them. I just cant watch someone suffer while knowing that I could do something about it, and even if I couldn't, I would try. It doesn't matter if you just need lotion or a heart transplant, I am convinced that I can always fix everything. I'm even more protective over my friends, and i would do anything for them no matter what that anything is. This seems like a good quality to posses, and it is, except for the guilt you have when their was nothing you could do. A few months ago a friend of mine was telling me how she was currently talking a friend of hers out of suicide. I didn't know this person personally, but I followed them on Instagram. I thought about how I should DM them and tell them how suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. But I didn't, and then my friend started freaking out because her friend stopped responding. I cried about it all night because what if I, a stranger, could've saved him. Thankfully this person, Matt, didn't die, and this situation turned me from nurturer to a mother to anyone in need of one, no matter how young I am. Because going the extra mile by packing some Tylenol and cough drops in my bag every morning is a lot better then the over whelming feeling of guilt when you know you could've changed fate into a better destiny.
When did wanting something become a bad thing
"She BELIEVED she could, so she did" -unkown
My parents have always told my how proud they are of my for getting good grades, but what they don't completely understand is that I don't get them for them, or anyone else really, I get them for me, and that is the same with everything else I do. When ever i want something it doesn't register in my mind that anything other than my desired situation could happen, and I've always been that way. I want to be a well known YouTuber and spread a message of happiness and positivity, and i just cant seem to understand that the chances of that happening are slim. However, I don't think that this trait is a bad thing. In fact, I think it is one of the best things about me and has helped me see the world in a more optimistic perspective than most people realize. Because no matter how many "I'm a trash can" jokes a make or how many "I hate my life"'s I say, I will always continue to believe that I create my own destiny, and that the universe's fate can take a backseat to the one I have designed.