I wrote three letters that I never mailed. One to the man who broke my heart. One to the man who watched me from across the street. And one to myself. I never considered myself an angry person until I re-read the opening line of each letter: “I am so mad at you.”
"she and the moon could always be found playing in the darkness." a.j. lawless
After he’s gone, I instantly change my sheets, stripping my bed the way a little girl strips a doll, curious what is beneath and eager to make it my own. I put satin sheets on the bed, the special ones I never show anyone but myself. Then, I shower, put on my biggest t-shirt, and lay down. My arms and legs spread around my bed, as if the real estate of my mattress is freedom itself.
"I need solitude. I need space. I need air. I need the empty fields round me; and my legs pounding along roads; and sleep; and animal existence." Virginia Woolf
“Boys’ coming-of-age stories are about going out into the world and finding adventure, and finding their place. And girls’ coming-of-age stories tend to be about going into the world and discovering that it’s dangerous in new ways for them. New, because the world treats children strangely when they’re turning into women, but also different. Here’s how: if a man goes into the wild (defined however you please) and lives to tell the tale, his is a story of man versus nature. If a woman goes into the wild, the story she’ll tell, the story she’ll live, is of woman versus nature and man." -Blair Braverman, author of Welcome to the Goddamn Ice Cube
"Women and wolves have much in common. Both share a wild spirit. Women and wolves are instinctual creatures, able to sense the unseen. They are loyal, protective of their packs and of their pups. They are wild and beautiful. Both have been hunted and captured. Even in captivity, one can see in the eyes of a woman, or a wolf, the longing to run free, and the determination that should the opportunity arise, whoosh, they will be gone..." -Clarissa Pinkola Estes, author of Women Who Run With Wolves
At a certain point you have to stop being afraid of moving forward. Stop thinking of the hundreds of things you should be doing and just start. Put your fingers on the keyboard, your feet on the pavement, your butt in the chair. Do what traps and frees you because the other option is not doing it. And not doing it feels like you’re being launched one thousand miles per hour toward a future you don’t want.
If you don't get it on paper, it's lost.