Looking back to the old days of my childhood, to one of the most painful moment losing my grandmother. I can sill remember her face that could light up my blackest day, her smile that could lift me up from my discomfort, her famous baking skill. Her entire existence, everything about her is still here on my mind.
All the tears, pain, and heartaches it cause me and my family. When we lost the foundation of our family. We lost with her the chance of a lifetime. She's my inspiration, she's my shield from someone who threw stone at me, she's my Lola who always believed in me.
Marking her 15th death anniversary. Many years had gone by, and everyday I missed her. I wish I can say to her how much I love to do things she used to love too, like putting make up on that I know I got from her. I wish I can say to her how grateful I am that she's my Lola. Lastly, I wish to celebrate this life with her, the life that I have now. The life I know would be different if she's still with me. Because honestly, all I need now is the tightest hug and longest kiss I can get from her. That is never gonna happen.
BUT. She gave me my Mum who reminds me of her. Strong, Fearless, Kind, and most Loving human being I know. Everyday I thanked God for the gift of life she gave to me and my love ones. For I know my Lola from heaven is in happiest place with Him, I am sure she is guiding us. Love your loved ones like tomorrow is the last day you'll see them.