By: Emma Massey
“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” (2 Corinthians 12:9)
I want to be real with you all for a minute. For the past two years, I have been struggling a lot with the mistakes in my past and how to reconcile them with who God has called me to be. This all came to a head in the past couple of days when God revealed something so awesome that I had to write it down for all of you to read.
God isn’t playing catch-up with your mistakes. He’s not tallying up the rights and the wrongs and weighing them on a scale. He’s not looking at you with disappointment or frustration.
I know growing up, there were three faces my mom would make: happy, frustrated, and angry. Happy I was of course pleased with, and if I saw the angry face, I ran and hid because I was probably going to get a well-deserved whooping. But the look of frustration that was coupled with her being disappointed or upset was always the hardest to figure out. Still to this day, I never want to disappoint my parents, so I try to be the absolute best that I can be.
How many times do we try to put on a good face and be the best we can be, when inside, we’re clutching our sin and shame and refusing to let it go?
God is not looking at you with disgust or disappointment. He’s looking at you with arms open wide. He isn’t frustrated or angry with you…He loves you. In fact, He loves you so much that He was willing to take on the likeness of human flesh and be mocked, beaten, and crucified for all of our sins.
“Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one's life for one's friends.” (John 15:13)
“For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry, “Abba! Father!”” (Romans 8:15)
Through my fears and shame about my past, I had been treating Him as though He wasn’t the victorious King that He is. I don’t know if any of you are doing or have done the same thing, but please stop buying the lie that your baggage is too much for the Lord to carry. Stop bogging yourself down with the shame and disappointment that He died to eliminate. God is not having to fight off Satan and clean up after him. Jesus isn’t following after you while picking up the pieces, He is leading you into His victory! He has already picked up your pieces and put them into place! He is enough!
I want you to listen carefully to this: God is not playing catch-up. GOD IS VICTORIOUS.
By His death, burial, and resurrection, we have been freely called into that same victory. The victory over life and death, over sin and shame, over guilt and regret. When we disregard his freedom by voluntarily burdening ourselves with the load that He died to take, we cheapen what He did for us in our hearts and we convince ourselves that we have to pay the penalty to make up for our mistakes. Instead, by surrendering to Him and giving Him those mistakes, we can claim His victory! We can kiss the baggage of our past goodbye because our God has won the war! Isn’t that awesome!?
If you know Him, all of your past, present, and future is completely covered! If you do not know Him, He is holding out His glorious hand right now to you so that you can come into a relationship with Him and have everything covered by His precious blood. By following Him, we can all walk in His freedom daily instead of wading in the pool of regret.
There is no God but our God; there is no strength but our Strength; there is no lord but our Lord. He is enough. All of the things from your past that you think are holding you back…all of the things that you think the Lord can’t handle…they are nothing in comparison to His grace. He is sufficient.
“It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.” (Galatians 5:1)
“No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” (Romans 8:37-39)
So, please, dear friend of mine, do not take any more time holding onto the shame of your past. Instead, nail it to the cross, leave it at His feet, and walk away victorious because He is King.
Heavenly Father, oh how far I fall from the victory You’ve called me to. You know my restless, anxious heart. You know every inch of me, God, and yet You love me. You do not turn Your face away from me in disgrace. Instead, You keep pursuing my heart; You keep breaking through to me without fail. I thank You, Lord, that You are victorious, and through You, we can claim the victory. So, Father, I lay it all down. All of my shame and my guilt and I turn away from the life I’m living because I want to live for You. Please forgive me for where I have failed You. I nail all of my past regret to Your precious cross and I leave my burdens at Your feet, wholly trusting that Jesus, You are King. Help me, Father, to live in the victorious and abundant life that you have called me to. In Jesus’ matchless and precious Name, Amen.