But then I heard the refs whistle again and I was confused because I was probably the best kicker on my team and I was the one fouled, shouldn't I take the shot? But no penalty shot was given, and the whistle I heard was for a goal kick. Apparently, a intentional slide tackle from behind that hooks the player's leg isn't a foul. According to FIFA, a red card should is warranted when, a player uses excessive force and endangers the safety of another player. I ended up partially tearing my calf and after the game and the overall adrenaline, I couldn't walk for the next 3 days and walked with a limp for a while. After the goal kick, the rest of the game, which was about 5 minutes, ended. We had lost and they had won the Pelé cup.
After the game ended, I walked off the field, walked out of the park, and went home. Well, it really was more of a hobble-limp and at one point I had to stop because my leg hurt so much. I knew my team would lose the rest of the Pelé cup games, I knew I was letting them down. But I knew that if I couldn't expect fair refereeing, than I couldn't play. A slide tackle from behind in itself should have warranted a warning, and tripping a player from behind is an instant yellow, but because I and a practically open goal, it was a clear case of denial of an obvious goal scoring opportunity. As a soccer player, I was always taught that winning came second, and that sportsmanship was the most important. When I lost a game, I was disappointed, but I never felt the need to take it out on someone or something, I just thought, ‘Hey, they played better than me, what else can I do.’ I never said that I could do better, I knew I tried my hardest and if I lost, I would have to get better. I learned from this encounter about how other people view winning and losing. This moment in my life has taught me many lessons which all relate to one central theme. It is not a good lesson, but it is one that everyone must know. It is that life isn't fair sometimes and that if someone plays dirty, you do what you need to do to win. Another lesson is one that I find to be a bad thing to teach, and that is that if you aren't able to win by playing, win by cheating. This player's response to me passing him should've been one of sadness, one of knowing that I had beat them and accepting that, but at the same time, he should've known that the only way to get the ball back was to chase me down. Instead,he thought that he should endanger my career and my health to unfairly disposes me. It sickens me to know that some people think that they must cheat to win.
My you decide piece is a word cloud. The work itself is representative of how I enjoy clouds, and the fact that my mentality is one of thinking small for everything and then being happy when that one small cloud expands and turns into something big. One of my favorite quotes is about how as long as you have strength in your body, you are able to do incredible things. This quote relates to my word cloud in that the things in the cloud represent what is important to me and simply, who I am. For example I put sleep in as a small thing, but I repeated it so many times because of the fact that it happens so often. Many of my other words are important but I sleep more often than play frisbee. Other words are included because they are what makes me unique. For example, I suffer from a bone disease called pectus excavatum, or funnel chest. What this means is that my rib cage is bent in at one point instead of out. In addition, my left side of my rib cage is overall lower. I put this low on my list, as it doesn't define who I am, it just gives me a shortcoming that I have to overcome. I take this “gift” and I am thankful, because it gives me something that I need to overcome and without it, what would give me a reason other than to prove to others with my condition that they can do it. Another weird thing about me is that I have no dominant foot. I am able to use both feet to play soccer and I have found that based on the activity, I use a different foot. For example, when I need speed, I will usually use my right foot to get a first step, but when I need to balance, I use my left foot. All of the words my list contain represent what I have weather it is good or bad and is just the main thing i think about everyday.
Now… I had a vision when I started drafting this project, and smaller visions of each part. But I knew that I would have one idea that rose up above all others, the one thing that I value above all else and that I would die for, the thing that all people know and value, the thing singers from far-off lands sing ballads about. By now you should've guessed what I'm talking about; it's myself. Whenever I encountered a part of any section that I felt was wrong, I forgot everything I knew and looked at it as if I knew nothing about myself and started to read the section. Then again, I doubt it would be fun to read about someone you don't know. It is an easy thing to write about yourself, but at the same time it is hard because there is the fact that you are writing about something you have experienced but nobody else has. Me being one who is never deterred, (despite giving myself a stitch(I don't know how I do this(like I'm not super athletic, but c’mon!!)) I have traversed through many stoppages, whether it was that I couldn't come up with anything or I could but I had just gotten in that one comfy position and really, really didn't want to move. But despite these brutal conditions, I have written these entries.