It was that I just couldn't find the courage to go for it. “Uggh! I can't do it. I don't get it” I groan.
“ Baby steps” my coach Megan says. “ You have been out for a while with your broken foot”.
“It's still not an excuse”, I say.
“Yes but you just have to do it. Lets try another one”, Megan says.
It is now one day until competition. I still don't have my back tuck.
“What am I going to do now”, I say to Emma with frustration.
“I don't know... I won't go for it either. I guess just go for it.
“That’s what I’m trying to do.” I say
“Then try harder. Let's just get back to work. We have to get this to go to the competition” Emma says.
“Ok let's do this.” I say with not so much confidence, rolling my eyes.
Me and Emma are the only ones without our back tucks and we need them to compete. Every time I go I whisper to myself “do it.”
I do my roundoff back handspring stop then do a standing back tuck. It's a good back tuck but I need it conected to compete. Emma does roundoff back handspring stop. I can tell Emma's frustrated by the gleaming look of frustration in her eyes.
As I’m working Megan yells, “5 more minutes”.
“Only 5 more minutes?”, I say getting back to work quickly with a frightening thought of not competing.
All the time the thought was I will do it next time but as Megan yells what she just yelled, I realize that's the only time left I have “only a little time left” this thought echoes in my head.
“So close now I just can't stop”, I say.
That's when it hit me…. just do it. I have all the skills, I just have to put it together. I start to go for it ready, set, one, Two, THREE; round-off backhandspring...
My whole world stops I don't breath for what feels like forever. I'm turning, I'm turning, the sound of the gym taking a big breath just waiting for me to stick it. My feet hit the ground like an earthquake shattering everything in its path. Looking, looking found! “I DID IT”, I scream while the air explodes with cheers of teammates, every one comes to give me a high five and hugs.
I start to do it one tuck after another 10, 20, 25, 30. “I did it, yes”, I whisper to myself.
It has been quite the journey but I did it.
“See you at the competition” I say as I leave the gym.
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