Thomas said, “I thought that Christ was going to be very disappointed.” But he said, “No sooner than those words left my mouth, I sensed Christ breathe a great sigh of relief. It was as if Christ was saying to me, “for seven years, with great dedication and misguided zeal, you’ve been trying to live a life for me that only I can live through you, and finally, I’m in business.” Thomas went back and read the New Testament, and he was amazed at how much there is about this in the New Testament. “It’s no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me.” Or in John 15, “I am the vine, you are the branches. If the branch remains in me it bears much fruit, apart from me you can do nothing.” (1)
I am not always what I am despite my attempts to be it.
An experience of busyness as a Christian is not always as fruitful as we would like, because it originates in our false self instead of our true self. False self is built up from accumulated externalities. Your true self is who you are in union with our Father.
The freedom and innocence of being you leads to your glory and the glory of God.
We can live and old covenant life as an active Believer and achieve drops of fruitfulness. But our results can be much less than we imagine because they lack spirit and life. Rivers of life happen when we and our Father are one. There’s a reason why the incarnation is everything. It makes us the manifestation of God and prepares a landing place for Holy Spirit. Life in the gifts does not belong to the old covenant because in such a mode it is not a life in the Spirit. The latter is life in company and oneness with the trinity. In this companionship we do only what Father is doing because we and Father are one.
The new birth is our beginning again with Jesus as our life.