IF It Weren't For God When You Feel Inadequate by Vincent Williams

Dedicated to Ms. Collins, Professor of English, Seattle Central College 1994. Simply put " Vincent, you have a flair for writing." Your words have been an inspiration in my writing ever since, so thank you.

Also to my family especially my wife Teresa Williams for your continued support and love through my trials and tribulations. Thank you. You have no idea the strength you have to bare burdens.

Preface

If you are reading this book then you must understand something. This book, as probably the case of many others, came from out of much personal discouragement and despair. I was able, only through the help of God, to push past the feeling of inadequacy, and this is why you are reading it now.
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God is all Sufficient

As I started formulating this book in my mind, I felt an excitement inside, a real sense of purpose. I had something that I needed to share. I had a burning desire inside to share my heart. God’s heart in essence. I came to understand that formulating and actually writing are two very different things. In the beginning there was that sense of "Yeah this is going to be something special, something I believe God is inspiring me to write. A book, that will hopefully be an encouragement to the body of Christ." I sensed God was doing something in my life. However, I could not figure out why He would choose me. Why would God want meditations from my heart made known? Then it hit. This feeling of being totally inadequate and unprepared and incapable of undertaking such a project. I had never done anything quite like this before. Who am I that I would even dare write a book? That brought about an attitude of discouragement and defeat. Therefore, I put the idea on hold and forgot about it.

It was the Martin Luther King Jr. Holiday weekend 2001, and that previous Friday I was putting the finishing touches on the speech that I was going to be giving at the Saturday Morning Prayer Breakfast, at the Seattle Center. This was their second annual prayer breakfast. I had

been on the program the prior year and this was my second invitation to speak. The prior year my speech was received well and from what I remember, was the topic of conversation among many of the attendee’s months later. So God really blessed. He was glorified.

As I was preparing, this time around, I had a real sense of inadequacy. Although God validated me the first time I spoke, I had this overwhelming sense of panic. Had I forgotten how God had worked the previous year? I was in a panic. I remember earlier in the week, my friend Doug was experiencing the same fears regarding something God had called him to do. I tried my best to encourage him in the Lord; that through Christ he could do all things. Now I found myself having a similar experience. I was the one now needing the encouragement. I was the one who needed reminding of the promises in God’s word.

That morning, I was listening to the radio and Charles Stanley came on. His topic had to do with the very same thing I was going through. Inadequacy! God knows just how and when to encourage you. The enemy seeks to rob you. However, God said otherwise. Charles Stanley, posed the question, “How should we respond to

feelings of inadequacy?” When I heard that, I cried in my heart and began to listen intently. God was speaking to me. He had intended for me to listen to the radio that morning and He was going to use Charles Stanley in an excellent way.

Sometimes we fail to recognize how we effect people’s lives. How we are able to encourage someone and not realize it. That is one of the gifts of the Spirit, that God has blessed the body of Christ. God supernaturally uses

the word of knowledge and we are able to provide comfort and encouragement when we are not even trying. Think about that for a moment? It has probably happened to you. Encouragement came when you least expected it, and might have come through a person that did not know your circumstances. Yet, God knows. When you are going through troubled times He will see you through. He will provide that beacon of hope and light by His Spirit. In addition, the beautiful thing is, that God comforts us, and so enables us to comfort someone else.

My comfort would come by way of the Spirit of God, through Dr. Stanley.He said, (and I wrote it down in my bible), “ God has made me something I could never be.”

2 Cor 3:4-6 And we have such trust through Christ toward God. Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think of anything as being from ourselves, but our sufficiency is from God, who also made us sufficient as ministers of the new covenant, not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.(NKJ)

I thought about that, and as I listened, I understood, yes, he is right. In and of my self I could never be wise enough. I could never be articulate enough. In my own abilities, I would never have what it takes to be effective. God through His Spirit is able to work through me. He is able to make my ministry effective.

He is able to effect change in peoples lives. Not according to my will, how well I look or any other human characteristic, but by the Spirit of the living God working on the hearts of the hearers. Such an overwhelming peace came over me. Knowing that Almighty God would make what I do effective. I did not have to worry about it. I could have confidence in His ability. That took the pressure off me. I knew that by His Spirit, He would work through me to accomplish His purpose. He was in control. It caused me to depend upon Him.

Moreover, the reality of the truth is, God wants to engage you and I in a relationship of trust and

dependence. He wants us to give up self-effort in all that we do and depend solely upon Him. God is changing us into someone that we could never become without Him, and causing us to accomplish deeds, we could never achieve alone. How could it be, that all of a sudden we believe we can do, without Him, the very things He called us to do?

That is the wonder of it all. When God calls you to something, He will equip you. Many people walk in defeat in this area, because they do not feel they have what it takes. They refuse to step out in faith and trust the Lord with it. We miss the opportunity to serve the body of Christ with our talents and gifts; thus, we rob the body and ourselves of God’s best. Sometimes, this is because we do not trust the Lord, but we compare

ourselves to others. We say, “look at so and so, they can do thus and such.”

They are allowing the Lord to work through them. God wants to equip you for His calling for you. Then, work through His Spirit to accomplish His work. Nevertheless, (and here is a crucial point) we must be willing to submit to Him in trust. You must bend your heart in dependence upon God. Only then can and will we be effective. Only then, will the fear depart. Only when you bend your knee to Jesus and say, “ Lord not my will, but thy will be done.”

Well that Saturday the Lord blessed. I had given the means and results over to Him. I prayed, “Lord, please speak to the hearts of us your people” and He did.

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On Him I Can Depend

If you are like me, you love praise and worship music. As you listen to the words and worship God, you cannot help but be in awe of God. His beauty and majesty come shinning through. Worship songs attest to what God has revealed to man about Himself. He is the creator of the universe. He is eternal. He is Lord and Savior, King and Priest. God has many attributes that He reveals when we worship Him. He has gifted so many men and women over the years to be inspired to write these wonderful songs of praise to Him. As I was writing this I was thinking of the song, “ Majesty, Worship His Majesty.” That is what praise and worship music is.

Scripture proclaims that God is somebody. God has given man sixty-six love letters that speak of His love for you and I. Genesis, the first book of the bible, opens with, “In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.” God is the sole contractor, if you will, that created the universe. God is somebody. Can you fathom how He is able to hold the universe together? Scripture say’s, “God expands the heavens.” He is still creating. There is

reason that God is still creating. The universe continues to expand because it would collapse upon itself. Man cannot fathom the awesome creative power of God. Nevertheless, creation speaks of His glorious, almighty power. God is somebody. In 1999, I was very ill. I had never been so sick in my life. My body was wracked with pain, nausea, and not to mention, stress. However, let me tell you, God is somebody. I was attending a local hospital in Seattle, under the care of several doctors. Notice I said several. They performed many tests over the course of a year or so. Nevertheless, they could not determine the cause of my problems. Well, you can imagine my frustration, not to mention the suffering I was going through. I could not work, and I was barely any good around the house. I was in bad shape. Well, finally after about a year, a different doctor was able to make a diagnosis, which promptly sent me to a specialist. He told me that I had a little tiny block in my intestines. All this time people are praying for me, but to no avail. My condition was worsening. Something had to happen. I really needed God to intervene. I was praying and needed Him to work a miracle. Nevertheless, I remember what God told Paul, “That His grace was sufficient for him.” This is the apostle Paul, a unique servant of the God. God was using him mightily and you would think that God would want him at his best. God told him that, ”His power is manifest in weakness.” All you can do, at this point, is stand and trust God. Trust that He has your best interest at heart.

Well, the specialist treated me with medicine, which alleviated some of the pain, but did not cure me. Now, it was approaching the end of the year and no change. The doctors discussed operating, but it would be more exploratory than anything else. Again, I mention, God is somebody. Little did I know He was working things out. He had a plan that I was not privy too.

In September of that year, I received a letter in the mail informing me that my medical coverage switched to a different plan and hospital. I was more than a little concerned. Would I have to start this long procedure all over again? I had endured enough, since they finally had determined what was going on. Well, I had to trust God. Soon I was seeing another specialist. This one proved to be more aggressive. She gave me a two-week period and then we would pursue operating.

Well let me say again, God is somebody. Understand that God spared my life.

Do you know what a miracle is? Have you ever witnessed a miracle? I really do not know whether you could characterize what God did in this situation as one, but as far as I am concerned, yes it was. In the gospels, God did something similar. It was prophesied that the Messiah would be born in Bethlehem (Micah 5:2). Well if you know the events, you understand that God is in control. Before the time of Jesus’ birth, Caesar Augustus

called for a census, where everyone had to return to his or her ancestral home for registration. Joseph was a member of the royal line of King David; therefore, he had to return to Bethlehem. What God did in my life is far less significant then that of Christ. Nevertheless, God wants to accomplish His purpose in our lives. He will use situations and circumstances to accomplish that purpose. God worked it out. Two weeks had passed and I returned to the specialist, but there had not been any change. Well my greatest fear began to set in - surgery. My doctor explained to me what the procedure would be like, the risks, complications, recovery, ect. All I could focus on was “What if something went wrong?” “ What would come of my family?” Yet, again, I had to trust the Lord. He would protect me. God was working things out for my good.

On the day of the surgery, I had a calm peace. My family and church family had prayed that God’s will would be done. His love would just overshadow me. He would guide the doctors and all would turn out according to His divine plan. After uthe surgery, I remember my surgeon whispered to me, “Vincent you’re going to be just fine. Everything went well. However, I must tell you that you are fortunate we got to you in time. You had a block in your intestines the size of my fist that was going to rupture and you would have bled to death.” Nevertheless, God is somebody! You hear me. God spared my life here on earth because His plans include my service. He could use anyone to fulfill His plan and purpose. Nevertheless, He chose me as His

servant. In order to use you, there must be a dependence upon God. Only in the place of dependence, as like a little child, will that happen. My life, as well as your life, is in God’s hands. Unfortunately, some people only truly realize that reality while clinging to life. When the children of Israel came upon the wilderness there was a great deal of panic and confusion. The people wondered why God had led them to such a place? To die? It seems and that would have been better in Egypt. What kind of God would do that? Israel rebelled, and plotted their return to Egypt. Had they forgotten the wonders of God, His mighty miracles? Had they forgotten God had destroyed their enemies? God has to lead us away from what we have been dependent upon so that we can depend on Him. He desires real blessing and contentment for His children. The situations and circumstances of our life may seem very unfortunate, but God is using them to shape and forge our character. Everything God works out is for God. (Notice I said God!) Those troubles and problems, frustrations and failures will result in true success in God. One moment the children of Israel were in the wilderness, the next moment in a land flowing with milk and honey. The time in between was one of removing that which hindered them from moving forward. God has to set us apart in order to sanctify us, to renew our minds and hearts. God has to instruct us in the word, leading to a position of trust. There was no food or water, and it was total dependence upon God for life. Every man, woman, child and animal was in His hand. There will be times when you are wondering, “What is God doing?” How can this be in accordance with God’s perfect plan?” Think about it. Remember the story when God told Joshua to march around Jerico? March around Jerico? Is He serious? What is that going to do? God gave him specific orders as to how he was going to defeat the enemy. Can you imagine what the people in Jerico were thinking, “What, are they crazy?” God’s ways are not our ways , His thoughts are not our thoughts. Think about what He says about the cross “ It is foolishness to them that are perishing.” Totally something outside the realm of what we would do. God does not consult with us on the best way of accomplishing a task. Our salvation is only by total dependence upon the person and work of Jesus Christ. There it is! We need to relate to this fact in every area of our life. For an abundant fruitful life, equates to total dependence upon God. God will cause the walls in our life to come tumbling down. As our heart yearns to win hearts for Jesus, the walls will come tumbling down. Our posture is one of simply trusting and obeying. Sometimes we will not have the benefit of knowing God’s total plan in every given situation. God does not give us the luxury. As we remain steadfast and faithful, bits and pieces will fall into place, and then you will look back and marvel.

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Chosen Vessels

I remember in my neighborhood growing up, there were a quite a few kids older then me. This made them sometimes faster, taller, and more skilled at sports, then I was. I was always that last one picked. I hated that! Why could I not have been just a little bit taller, faster? I could have been the kid on the block with the skills. In the writings of the apostle Paul, he always began by saying, “Paul, an apostle of Jesus Christ, by the will of God...” In short, Paul was hand picked by God to be an apostle of Jesus Christ. A specific work in the advancement of the Church. God called him and equipped him. The book of Acts, from chapter 9 on, is filled with the ministry of Paul the apostle. However, what was he doing before the call? Like all of us, before walking in the light, we walked in disobedience to God. Paul was no different. Paul, by his own admission, felt he was the chief of sinners. He understood the depth of his condition before God called him into the glorious light. He wrote in Ephesians that, “we were once dead in our trespasses and sins (Eph. 2:1).” We were spiritually dead and lost. We conducted ourselves according to the lusts of the flesh, fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath.” Before God apprehended us, this is what we were. Think about it? Before God called you into a relationship with Him, you had no inkling of obedience. The Word says, “you break one [commandment] you are guilty of all.” Well lets say for one moment that you never sinned in you life. Do you think that would ever qualify you for heaven? No. Because there is this problem of our sinful nature, a nature that the human race inherited from Adam. We are born little sinners and thus guilty before a holy and righteous God. “But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which he loved us, even while we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved).” God showed the exceeding riches of His grace. God gave you and I the greatest gift that we could ever hope to receive. There was nothing that we could do to earn it or merit it. It was by His exceeding grace and according to His good pleasure that God chose us. God showered an overwhelming amount of compassion on those who were disobedient. That is love. God and us alone are fully aware of what we have done in our lives, but God’s

obedience. The Word says, “you break one [commandment] you are guilty of all.” Well lets say for one moment that you never sinned in you life. Do you think that would ever qualify you for heaven? No. Because there is this problem of our sinful nature, a nature that the human race inherited from Adam. We are born little sinners and thus guilty before a holy and righteous God. “But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which he loved us, even while we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved).” God showed the exceeding riches of His grace. God gave you and I the greatest gift that we could ever hope to receive. There was nothing that we could do to earn it or merit it. It was by His exceeding grace and according to His good pleasure that God chose us. That is love. God and us alone are fully aware of what we have done in our lives, but God’s exceeding grace has been manifested to us. His love is revealed in the person of Jesus Christ. That love is tangible now because we understand who we were in Christ. God did not just save you from hell. Although, believe me that is a wonderful thing. God called you to a ministry. One of reconciling the world to Himself. Just as God used someone, like a friend, brother, or a wife to lead you to salvation, God, in turn use you in the same manner.

I know what you are thinking. How can I do that? On the other hand, I have tried and had no success? Further, I am not qualified to do that. Well did you know that when you received Christ as your Lord and Savior, the Holy Spirit, (God Himself) came to indwell you? Yes! Moreover, He came to you bearing gifts. 1 Cor 12:1-12 1 Now concerning spiritual gifts, brethren, I do not want you to be ignorant: 2 You know that you were Gentiles, carried away to these dumb idols, however you were led. 3 Therefore I make known to you that no one speaking by the Spirit of God calls Jesus accursed, and no one can say that Jesus is Lord except by the Holy Spirit. 4 There are diversities of gifts, but the same Spirit. 5 There are differences of ministries, but the same Lord. 6 And there are diversities of activities, but it is the same God who works all in all. 7 But the manifestation of the Spirit is given to each one for the profit of all: 8 for to one is given the word of wisdom through the Spirit, to another the word of knowledge through the same Spirit, 9 to another faith by the same Spirit, to another gifts of healings by the same Spirit, 10 to another the working of miracles, to another prophecy, to another discerning of spirits, to

another different kinds of tongues, to another the interpretation of tongues. 11 But one and the same Spirit works all these things, distributing to each one individually as He wills. 12 For as the body is one and has many members, but all the members of that one body, being many, are one body, so also is Christ (NKJ). To each of us; yes, this means you. He gave gifts that He wanted you to have to serve the body of Christ and the world. God calls us to serve, but He does not leave our effectiveness to chance. He equips us to be able to accomplish His purposes.

Our part in all this is to study to become equipped with the knowledge of Him (2Tim. 2:15). You must know the truth for yourself. You must know what you believe and why you believe it. Our relationship with God should drive us into the word. When you love somebody, you want to be around him or her and spend time getting to know them. God wants to have an intimate relationship with you. Wherein, He can pour His love into your heart that it might flow to others. Furthermore, out of the abundance of your relationship, you will experience the heart of God. God then is able to secure in your heart His desires for you. His will for your life. Then you will be ready to tackle the world. Yeah right! Okay. I am not like so and so. I can not speak eloquently like this person. Why would God use me? By His grace you were saved, lest any man should boast (Gal. 2:16). It was God’s sovereign choice to give

you salvation. It was His divine prerogative. (Read the first Chapter of Ephesians.) Consequently, the Word is clear concerning God’s call. Look with me in 1 Corinthians 1:26-31 1 Cor 1:26-31 26 For you see your calling, brethren, that not many wise according to the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble, are called. 27 But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty; 28 and the base things of the world and the things which are despised God has chosen, and the things which are not, to bring to nothing the things that are, 29 that no flesh should glory in His presence. 30 But of Him you are in Christ Jesus, who became for us wisdom from God-- and righteousness and sanctification and redemption-- 31 that, as it is written, "He who glories, let him glory in the Lord." (NKJ) Maybe you do not have a degree in biblical studies. Will you commit to a disciplined study of God’s word? The apostle Paul said, in the Book of Galatians, he did not immediately confer with flesh or go up to Jerusalem to the other apostles, he went to Arabia. Now I am not

discounting formal training, for it can be very beneficial. But, right here, right now, if you invest the time, God will sow into your heart His truth. Now, I do not want you to get the impression that this is some type of motivational lesson. It is to encourage you with the fact that, in Christ all things are possible.

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Who Are You

Describe your self to me? Have you ever been on a job interview and the interviewer asked you, “Now tell me a little about yourself?” How did you respond to that question? Did you list all your important credentials and characteristics? Sure you did. You were trying to get that job. You wanted them to see that you were qualified for the job. Also, that you were the best applicant.

We’ll if I were to ask you, “Now that you have become a Christian, describe yourself to me, how would you respond? Does the name servant ring any bells? Brother Vincent, I am deacon! Servant! Brother Vincent I am prophet! Servant! Brother Vincent I know I am somebody I am a evangelist! Servant! Whether you are a pastor, musician or what have you, the fact remains you are a servant of God. Here is your first test. “Here is my address, you can come over and wash my feet,” seriously though. Let this mind be in you that was also in Christ Jesus. There is a certain presence of mind, we have to have, when it comes to service. In biblical times, one of the lowest of the servant jobs was to greet and wash the feet of travelers as they entered the house. Jesus, in teaching about servanthood washed the feet of His disciples. What should that tell you and me? The

greatest position is serving others. You may find that hard to believe, and even beneath you. Nonetheless, that is the way of servanthood in Jesus and leads to true greatness. Christ gave His all in service to His master, the Father. In perfect obedience, even to death on the cross. However, it does not stop there. He was exalted and given a name above every name. You see, we have to go down before we can come up. Jesus did not come to earth as many thought, as an exalted King. He came as a lowly servant. How many times have you said, “ I want to be like Jesus?” The magnitude and depth of that statement is far greater than most imagine. We see the miracles and such and we want that power. We need to focus on the servanthood of Christ. Our lives, must be lived out, in obedience and dependence upon the Father. You must remember that Jesus is God. Yet, within the Godhead there is a functional hierarchy. Jesus is one with God the Father, yet, in the relationship exists submission, amazing but true. That reality should set a tone and precedence in our view of God and our response toward Him. Furthermore, it should reflect how we see ourselves in relation to Him and His regard to others.

If Jesus had a servants posture, should we aspire for anything more? The great thing about His attitude is that it was the key to greatness. Jesus was exalted. Fact! Now admit it, you desire to be exalted, right? Right! Listen, God will exalt you in accordance with His plans. Yet (and there is always a yet), the same mind that was in Christ Jesus must be in us.

Examine for yourselves according to the scriptures and evaluate the commitment of Christ unto His Father. Perfect in every detail. Now you and I are not going to have perfect faith, and God knows that. Listen, Abraham did not have perfect faith. He was living in an active relationship with the God who appeared to him. Yet, that did not stop God’s promise. God used Abraham in His plan and purpose, and that is great to observe. We may think that we can live any kind of way and that will be enough. God’s grace should never make us think of sinning. Nevertheless, out of gratitude and love we should be determined to be faithful to God. In the relationship between God and Abraham, God blessed Abraham. God exalts. God makes his name great. God caused Abraham to be fruitful. The same divine will applies to you and I. Like Abraham, are you willing to believe God’s Word and to hold fast to the promises of God? Are you willing to renew your heart and mind to reflect the attitude of the greatest servant of all, Our Lord Jesus Christ? God has that exalted position for you. It may not be according to you standards, but it will be God’s best. The key is that of desiring what God desires are for your life. God is the one who places the desires in our heart in the first place. He is not trying to hide His will for our lives. Yet, we have to discern truth. A test would be our motivations for doing thus and such. Honestly evaluating your spiritual gifts.

Do not become discouraged! Jesus Christ is our example. He is whom we are striving to be like. The characters in the bible are meant to encourage you. God does want to use our lives, but first He wants an intimate relationship with you. He wants your commitment to Him. God wants your heart. He wants your faithfulness. Before he allows you to try to compel someone else, he wants you compelled. You must be willing to commit to the very thing you would be asking others. Whoa, there it is. It is that simple right? Right! So, now who are you? You are a servant of God. From this day forward, submit your life and heart to Christ as He unto His Father. Christ is our example and we are compelled to model Him. As you do you will begin to witness God moving in your life.

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Ready! Set! Go!

(False Start)

Have you ever competed in a track event? You are ready at the start line and so anxious you false start? The officials can disqualify you after two false starts. That would be heart breaking after all the training you put in. Before Christ ascension, Jesus told His disciples that they would be His witnesses to the ends of the earth, but that they should wait until the Holy Spirit clothed them in power. As Jesus began His ministry, He called to Himself disciples that would learn from Him and follow Him. Jesus taught them about the kingdom of God. Not only did they hear His teachings, they were witnesses of His life that consisted of obedience to the Father. Further, they were firsthand witnesses of the awesome power of God in Christ. From the miracles of Cana, the

transfiguration, and through the resurrection and ascension, Jesus Christ proved without doubt the He is in fact God. The disciples worked alongside the living God of the universe. Try to imagine that. Through the power of God, the disciples were able to work miracles. Even with all the teaching and being in the presence of Jesus, they needed to be empowered by the Holy Spirit in order to fulfill their calling. The awesome thing is that God promised the Holy Spirit would be poured out upon all flesh. In Acts 2 we find the fulfillment of God’s promise. God has plans for your life and mine, yet without the Holy Spirit the work will not be done. Every believer, (those who have confessed Christ) has the Holy Spirit. Scripture proclaims “without the Spirit of God you are none of His.” Wherein the power lies is in the empowering of the Holy Spirit.” Scripture says we are to “be filled with the Spirit.” This indwelling is what every true believer shares in common, yet most Christians do not understand their moment by moment relationship with God. The Bible proclaims “Enoch walked with God.” There was consistent fellowship between him and God, through prayer and meditation of the Word. If you desire to walk according to God, we are to ask God to empower us by, and fill us with His Spirit. That is the only way to accomplish God’s purpose in your life. It is not just a onetime event either. We are to

ask God daily to empower us. If you think about it, this is necessary moment by moment, because we are like balloons, and we leak. We want the power of God afresh in our lives, yet that takes a life of consistent submission, and one of constant prayer. That is the point.

Then, you will have the ability to be faithful to God, and to live holy before God and man, a witness of the transforming power of God. My brothers and sisters, believe and trust God for His provisions for such a life. Allow the Holy Spirit to fill you. Allow the fruit of His presence to shine through you. Walk then in a moment by moment relationship with God, and watch how God engages your life. Watch how sensitive you become to His leading. Then, how boldly you can proclaim His truth. If you will discipline yourself to spend time with God and getting to know Him, you will begin to experience God in a new and fresh way. Case in point, so understand this: Moses, if you know the story, grew up in the Pharoah’s house after his sister rescued him from the Nile River. Thus, he had the best training, schools, and royal up-bringing. Yet, he had a stirring in his heart, because of the teaching of his heritage by his mother, and knew the enslavement of his people was not right. The oppression of the Hebrews had become extremely upsetting to him. Enraged over a fight between a Hebrew and an Egyptian, he killed the Egyptian and tried to cover it up. You see, he had a calling upon his life, a stirring of his heart, but he went about things in his own power. When God got a hold of him, things began to happen. That is when the true power of God was

made known to him. God, in a personal way, revealed Himself to Moses, and this is when the true education of Moses began. He heard the voice of God and his life as a willing servant took on new dimensions. God will do the same with and me. Just like Moses, without the Holy Spirit, our own self-efforts will fail. Only in the power of God can we succeed.

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Are You Willing

I will go I will go. Children love going to the store. Although they will not admit it, they wonder what is in it for them. That is their motivation.

What is your motivation? Is it money, fame, or power? I have to ask that question of myself often enough. Is what I am doing self-motivated and directed toward my personal benefit? Just this past weekend my family and I attended a youth service. I was invited as musical guest at church in the city of Renton, Washington because I write gospel hip-hop. My wife and children wanted to go, so I said sure. Well, at that time we did not have a car, so that meant we had to ride the bus. We will go and God will bless. So, we get out near the church and the bus driver said “ now walk east about 1 mile to 4th and Union, then about another mile to 10th and Union, then about ¼ mile, and you’re there. We started walking and I was thinking, “family if I would have realized all the walking involved, I would have left you home.” No sooner than we reached Union street, it started to rain. Still, we all were committed to continue. I had 2 five-year olds with me, my son and nephew, my seven-year old daughter and two other sons, ages, 9 and 11. But God is faithful. We were standing at the corner waiting for the walk-light when I heard a voice calling me, “Vincent.” I turned and looked and saw Mr. T from T.T. Minor, where two of my children attend school. He said, “where are you going?” I said to M.L.K. Church! He said, “You are going to my

church.” We got a ride the rest of the way there. Wow! God showed up in an incredible way. We were amazed. So we finally get there (there’s more) and they only have a boom box and no microphone. Again, God is somebody. Now I understand why other artists turned down their invitation. God called upon me and said, “I will send Vincent.” Okay, back to the boom box. My wife looked at me and I her, as if to say “Its on, and we’re not going to worry about that.” So I was introduced. “We have a special musical guest, Vincent William. So my CD comes on and I cannot get enough volume. No problem! You cannot lose focus in situations like this. I made do. The real cool thing is that it created a far more intimate exchange between the young people. I walked

out among them, touched their shoulders, and interacted with them with the words of my songs. They showed me love. God was glorified and we all received a blessing. Will you go? Does the situation have to be perfect for you in order to serve? My wife, God bless her, and I were talking that evening about the days events ,and she noted that on the program it said “Vincent Williams” in the introduction, but by the time you left, you were thanked as “Rev. Williams.” I was like, what? She said yeah. “During the Q&A session, when you painted that word picture, which explained to the kids some of the troubles and trials they experience, and they were amazed. God exalted you she said. See how God works. God used a little situation like

this to test your commitment, your faithfulness, your heart.”

In addition, check this out.

I was on the telephone with my friend Brian (BKO), telling him all about this and he said, “God was training you.” “Not you necessarily, but your children.” I never looked at it that way, praise God.

Will you go? When God called Moses to go and deliver the children of Israel, Moses told God, “who am I that I should go.” God said, “I will be with you.”

What holds you back from doing what God called you to do? Be encouraged, God is with you. He will see you through. He has made you something that you could never be. He is you adequacy. You have no excuses, so go on and believe God. Trust that He will work through you and make what you do effective and He is glorified. Amen.

Thank you for reading this book. I hope that it will be beneficial in your walk with God and in your ministry to His people. I would love your feedback back. I have provided an email address for your comments. Thanks again. Vincent

Scripture taken from the New King James Version. Copyright © 1979, 1980, 1982 by Thomas Nelson, Inc. Used with permission. All rights reserved.

If It Weren't For God

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