Yesterday was our last day of school, for a while. I still can't wrap my head around how crazy that is. It was only last week that the Corona virus was some sort of distant catastrophe. It was a problem in China that was devastating, sure, but nothing I needed to fear or worry about. Then, it was a European problem, suddenly, my sister's summer plans for Italy were in jeopardy, but all I though was, "sucks for her. " Then it was here, then OSU closed, then the Science Olympiad Regional tournament was cancelled, then winter sports were cancelled, and then school. Each cancellation only hours apart. Toilet paper was flying off the shelves, hand sanitizer became an item of value, and there was fear. Fear radiating from every news story, every announcement from the Governor, from the president, from every groupchat, and social media post. Personally, I have no idea what I am feeling. I think I've gotten so used to mirroring the emotions of the people around me, that now that there is actually something in the world that requires a reaction from me, I don't know who's lead to follow. Do I worry, do I think people are over reacting? Hopefully by the time this is all over, I'll be able to figure it out.
Today is Saturday, March 14. If the Corona virus wasn't here, I'd be at Winterguard practice preparing for the competition in Dayton tomorrow. But instead, we completed our last run of the show on Thursday. It was more emotional than I expected it to be, like there were multiple days of crying that followed. Maybe that emotion is slightly petty considering there are people dying, but I can't help it. I spent the past four months investing actual blood, sweat, and tears into learning and perfecting choreography to a beautiful show my heart was invested in, and now because of a virus I have no control over (and honestly hasn't really affected me or anyone I know) I don't get to show that to people. I also don't get to spent everyday with a team of my best friends and coaches. Anyways, the team wanted to meet today at five at Steak n' Shake, but I couldn't go, because Corona. I told them my parents said I couldn't go, which they did, but to be honest, I don't think I'd be comfortable in a public restaurant right now either. Except, now all I can think about is how long it will be until I can have a shake from Steak n' Shake.
It's Sunday, March 15th, and my calendar keeps telling me I need to go places when I don't. It's both sad and kind of nice. Mrs. Stohs asked me on Friday how I was going to live without being busy, apparently, I am not very good at it. My schedule normally consists of school, guard, science olympiad, dance, and band. Since my body knows only two things, being busy and Netflix, I'd better find things to do.
It's Thursday, and the Corona memes have officially taken over. A couple of my personal favorites...
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