~~~And so it goes like this----Once upon a time there were two naughty teenagers --- who fell in love--- & what came next would change our lives forever In a good way, but of course~~~~
And so it came to pass- May 9, 2013 while all the world was asleep- there were four crazy women and a Mommy to be and let's not forget my son- he was there on the phone - as he couldn't be there in person - but he did the best he could - as we huddled together in the tiny hospital room - there was screaming, crying, and occasionally Lori wld make a sound and we watched in awe as her Mom hit the ground - it was so surreal the way it made me feel ! I waited 9 long mos. with an array of emotions- from excitement, anticipation to down right as if our girl was playing peek a boo! I saw her black hair - then back in she would go- then we all yelled to Mommy - C'mon ! just one more push! It seemed like forever as I felt I'd explode if I could just snatch her up and stop the fire that was burning my soul! And Finally it happened - no more games - she was here ! Oh my Dear Sweet Jesus - Our ANGEL has appeared! Oh the indescribable love! The Joy! The happiness ! Yet still in the deep recesses of my mind - I felt uneasy- and the fear started t grow- omg - will this one be mine? Unconditionally ? Will she be taken from me? Should I get close? Oh my God memories began to taunt and haunt - I became very afraid - oh how could so much joy bring so much pain-
And after that night - and until my Angel went home I stayed by her side but I felt so alone- I was so sad, so torn, so alone. I fought with myself for a few mos after she was born I couldn't bare to know I may lose her one day. And so I tried my best to run away. Then one night - it finally hit me, this pain isn't leaving so I told myself - get up- take a chance - your hurting anyways, and My daughter probably was thinking I didn't love that little Angel- it is hard to explain what I went through before- but she took me in with open arms . She promised me she'd never hurt me through our little girl. And for this I love her (my daughter in law) her heart is beautiful - and that's all I see and ohh now I'm crying let's end this one happy !!!!
This little girl has mended hearts, brought the strongest to their knees, turned hate to love, brought families together, saved a life, and now for the miracles she's performed ----
She walks on Water - She Hangs the Moon- She turns crumbs into never ending Food- She's moved men with a single bat of an eye- and opened wallets that were sealed shut for all eternity- Shes made the Mute Talk- The coldest Heart Melt- she barks orders to the strongest of the human race and not only do they obey , they do,it with a smile-
Oh yes this little girl is our prodigy - I don't know how she did it - or what special power she posses - but the spell I am under - may it live forever !!! I know, I know I will never love again!
Then it happened - February 10, 2013 - My Gunny is here ! My emotions have fled- I've wrapped myself tighter around Sophy - it's hard to explain- I'm not real sure that I can, but I will try - as the days go by Sophy she is being mean to her brother what do I do...... There goes a spanking across my angels behind --- oh the tears - And Sophy hurts too-she feels abandoned, and a little jealous too. She no longer has Mommy all to herself she will have to share and she's still a baby herself.
Then one day My Son said what I needed but dreaded to hear - I was showing favoritism to Sophy and this I had feared - I knew I loved my Grandson- I just didn't know how to show it without upsetting Sophy- and I should have known I was hurting my Son and my daughter but more than that I was hurting my Gunny -
And now I know My Love is the same for them both I just needed that little push and Thank God it came before My Gunny got old enough to start resenting me. I'm so lucky - lucky and very loved - I have children that feel they can tell me when they think I am wrong - Not that their always right , but at least they can speak their peace and we can work it out. Wow , I am a good Parent. And I have Good Sons. And Flawless Grandchildren 😝😝😝😝. Jk jk