I've always struggled with the way I look.
I used to feel like there was something wrong with me because of the way I looked and I hated myself because no matter what I did, I could never make my shoulders less broad, I could never make my hips smaller, I could never make myself shorter.
I attacked myself emotionally and mentally because I felt like I was a mistake and that I could never be helped.
I tried many times to be bulimic but I couldn't ever make myself throw up, and then I would cry and beat myself up again because I couldn't even do something as simple as make myself throw up when so many other people could, and it helped them lose weight; why couldn't I do it too?!