No one is born on the spiritual path. It requires legwork to get there. Some may never want to mention that they were on the wrong path because it may tarnish their "appearance" to the ones that follow them, their "perfection" as spiritual leaders. I disagree - I believe admitting what you were NOT will help far more than trying to fluff yourself up as this spiritual rock star that never made mistakes.

That being said, I have come a long way in just over a year of moving to Colorado to be with my beautiful wife Karen. I was not perfect beforehand, and even when I "though" I was on the spiritual path, when I first started my youtube channel I was not truly in INTEGRITY with what I was teaching.

I was heavily into violent video games like Battlefield and Call of Duty for over 20 years. I drank alcohol. I watched violent movies like "Inglorious bastards" and TV shows like "The walking Dead". I ate terrible food from time to time at Taco Bell, McDonalds, and Burger King. Here I was teaching unconditional love, the spiritual path and behind the scenes I was being a hypocrite.

Now that I look back on it, I can easily see myself coming up with an excuse for it. "It won't affect me because I'm shielded" or "It's all fake, it isn't real so it's fine" or even "I need to see the world the way it is, the darkness and violence so I know what I'm fighting."

Bullshit.

I can easily look back on myself and tell him that he was making excuses. That I was dipping one toe in one pool, while simultaneously swimming in another. I was hitting the gas and the brake at the same time all because otherwise, I'd have to ween myself off of things that "entertained" me, things that were programmed into me. Sure, I was gaining knowledge, awakening some abilities, sharing, being "love and light", but my growth was being heavily stunted by so many things that I wasn't ready to let go of yet. Things that were literally like DRUGS that I needed to go cold turkey off of. And I did - cut it all out cold turkey, Karen and I even cut out all meat for a year to cleanse - and it's hard to look back.

I look back on these things now, and it truly disgusts me how desensitized I was to all of it. Neither Karen or I can watch a violent video game, or graphic content for more than a few seconds without feeling sick to the stomach and throwing our energies completely off. Imagine your empathic sensitivity, only multiply it times ten. It completely redefines the word "sensitive".

But with the times ten comes the abilities as well. Things I've never felt before, new abilities, existing abilities turned up to 11, synchronicity galore and miracles around every turn, but also more challenges. To get up the mountain you need to scrape your knees, even fall down a few times. Or maybe several times like I did. You have to look inside YOURSELF, at all the ugly and dark things you won't admit to yourself. All the excuses, all the pain to heal and clear it first. You can't just say that you're on the spiritual path, you have to live and breathe it - and stay within integrity of what it means. As Coriana our guide says "I don't work with people who are 99.9%, only 100%".

So many want to know what "we" did to get the abilities we have, the experiences we have. It's simple - we worked for it. We analyzed each of our lives and what didn't align needed to go - that includes what we consumed physically, mentally, and energetically. It meant also letting go of people that don't resonate with us, friends - even family - to finally see the brakes let off. The lessons don't stop - as you climb the air gets thinner, the weather gets rougher, but the rewards become greater as well.

Don't get me wrong - we're not saying you have to meditate 6 hours a day on top of a mountain, go vegan (we're not, we eat only organic) or quit your job and move to Peru (unless you're dream is to move to Peru). Everyone's path will be a bit different, you just have to look at the things that clearly hold you back.

As you climb, you will see the world like you have never seen it. With each step you come one step closer to truly understanding the meaning of the life you chose here. Once you finally get to the summit, there's more waiting for you. Only by then you'll no longer see things through the lens of "how much more do I have to go", you'll look down and see how far you've come, and you won't see it as a mountain anymore. You'll see it as a beautiful journey, as source intended. One spark of unlimited sparks heading up the mountain taking a different path, all part of the same light :)