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Compilation of some new work .
The Evolution of Consciousness in progress; based off actual scientific theory not just my thoughts or opinions.. SECTION I: When man first became, however one would like to believe he did, he operated primarily from Ego, as that was how he was able to survive. There are various levels of ego and overcoming it as well as stages in which one does so. At the primary stage, it is akin to Death. The primary emotion at calibration 20 is shame. For example, banishment from a community of village felt akin to death centuries earlier, as they had no one else. SHAME; THE GREAT DESTROYER; LOWEST Calibration of 20; LOWEST CALIBRATION; this level is perilously proximate to death conscious suicide or more suddenly elected by failure to take steps to prolong life indifference carelessness or accident everyone is aware of the pain of losing face and shame people hang their heads and sling away wishing they were invisible. Without reputation, one is treated with contempt and disdain and from there the shame only deepens. It takes a soul who knows that they have truly done nothing to deserve this lowest of energy calibrations. Or rather, i shall say they never INTENDED anyone harm. Well then again, I degree because i just said that perhaps we pay for what occurred in our last lifetime. One debased to shame, is different than one reduced to it BECAUSE OF SHAMEFUL actions. The former can be redeemed and go on to have a relationship with the Lord, while the other, if deserving within this lfe, has really nothing to fall back upon. LINK: The scientific underpinning of shame SHAME; lowest calibration there is and is marked not in guilt in something or what you've said or done but a pervasive feeling that there is something defective or wrong with you. This sickness we share will ensure that those who have further taken advantage of our disengaged selves, to to further push us down and ensure we do NOT STAND UNITED.
Downtown #Portsmouth, NH

Still speaking of shame here… we can’t continue with evolution of consciousness without but…People here very much and only stuck here in this and the former state…fear most basic disapproval rejection or failure; They have had experiences such as neglect or physical emotional or sexual abuse which lead to shame personality for a lifetime unless these issues are resolved same as fraud determined neurosis it is destructive to emotional and psychological health as a consequence of low self-esteem makes one prone to the development of physical illness LINK; The role ego has played in our evolution Can perhaps be seen as great benefit but also can cause great spiritual issue if not overcome Earliest forms, no innate source of energy, required them to get their energy externally THIS state has been likened many times to DEATH ; and often there is conscious suicide; though rather than finding the enegry in a near catanooic state to find the means to do so, instead those marked in this fashion slowly simply failure to take care of themselves in any way that would aid in prolonging their life, sucn as eating and drinking, Shame as induced by Banishment which was the equivalent to Death Rejection failure neglect All sorts of trauma lead to shame Produces neurosis Shame based personality; inverted Used as term as cruelty DANGEROUS; prone to paranoid and psychosis Can compensate by rigidity Can easily project their shame which they then feel justified in shaming and blaming

But before I speak of guilt and the lack people feel for it should their actions cost others, let me make a note on its alliance with justice; or lack OF; perhaps guilt regarding an action determines less of a character than their primary INTENT. For it’s WHY WE DO WHAT WE DO; ‘criminal’ or not as opposed to WHAT COM IN ACTION that matters and determines one’s likelihoo of doikg it again and or

feeling GUILT for it. So me speak of justice and how there can be none in a country where PEOPLES INTENTIONS AND EX EXIGENT CIRCUMSTANCES ARENT TAKEN INTO CONSIDERATION; as that is what would determine the nature of the man and criminality of any possible ‘crime’. Did he do ‘it’ to save another life or out of malicious vengeance. Now? So long as the DA CAN ensure the ‘criminal’ is painted as a bad seed no judge will consider THE HOWS WHATS AND WHYS OF THE CRIME. Let alone whether that person committed it. Now cases aren’t decided by judges but past decisions & decisions which is certainly anything other than progressives.

2. GUILT & VINDICTIVE HATE; calibration level 30; LINK; Guilt Complex Main symptoms of this state are; USed as blame by society to punish manifests as remorse, and whole gamut of symptoms Struggle with guilt their whole lives until th Some deny it altogether Results with preoccupation with Sin Psychosomatic disease accident prone nurse and suicidal behaviors many people struggle with guilt their entire lives while others desperately attempt to escape it domination results in preoccupation with an unforgiving emotional attitude religious demagogues who use it for control So commonly used by form of blame ManifestAs Remorse, Self recrimination, Self abnegation, Psychosomatic disease Most Struggle or trying to escape it by denying it Preoccupation with Sin Acting out their own guilt or projecting it onto others, provoke s rage and killing Capital punishment is an extreme example
EVOLUTION OF CONSCIOUSNESS; Spiritual EVOLUTION< The ego to spirit gtWork in progress by Julie Assmus https://julieassmustheword.wordpress.com Evolution of the Consciousness and Beyond; By Julie Assmus From The readings, research, audio I have heard, Ive learned a couple things about the evolution of consciousness; and its not a stretch to find out about it, Here I simply present my research and findings in a more succinct form. LINK; THE POWER OF INTENTION; why it matters more than action Frontiers | Character Strengths as Manifestations of Spiritual Life: Realizing the Non-Dual From the Dual | Psychology We are All ENERGY; And each frequency presents a certain calibration, the lower on the scale of evolution the state of consciousness, the lower the energy field, the lesser the calibration and the lesser the breathe of life that breathes into that being who encompasses them. We are not creatures of circumstance but our own creations, that can be very difficult for many to believe. What of the falsely incarcerated? How did they create their circumstances when truly innocent. That is where the theory becomes fuzzy to me. Though I Need to perhaps learn more about past lives and the fact that some may be paying a high price for the last one. In my personal theory, the more one lived a former life of gluttony, pleasures, contempt and spite, the lower the energy will ultimately be in the next, to create whatever unfavorable circumstances they feel and believe in This life they dont deserve. And in that respect they are correct. Yet not in the larger context, where there is reincarnation to consider. Otherwise, exempt of that as a ‘rationale’, are we left only with a flimsy theory that we do not create our own lives and circumstances. And we end up in those that are the last ones We ourselves have chosen, it Is or is Not our fault. But is then there no higher order? No God Many questions but here I ponder One
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Collage of my work
Downtown Portsmouth

Below is my older work ; black & white landscape from the past ten years or so … above is the new

Glimpses of Portsmouth
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We are on more different than we are alike. The more you foster your own delusional sense of superiority the longer you rob yourself and this world of all the good you can doC but only once you reconcile with it and within yourself.Humility can be the greatest bitch. American conditioning would far rather we be supremely deluded & continue to self soothe with all the tools advertisements have secured for us, the narcotics of American society, sex, food, drugs and good old rock & roll; whatever happens to be in score, all depending on the decade. We depend on these things we have come to believe are not the same, merely because we have gotten so good at the art of deception, deception in packaging, self deception, in advertising, in some new found radical self ‘acceptance’: Whatever we call these modes of detachment, the same openers in different packaging but offering the same things for the same reasons. How is it different and how do these ‘coping’ mechanisms help us evolve. Answer. They do not as they do not require adaptations which would themselces require a species undergo something far more arduous; far more Extreme than mere Coping. That is in the past the ONLY Way we have proven to change; that will prove to stay the same. What May not.... is our Ability to put off what we havw so far, unnecessarily stressing our species in the name of science to the degree True change needs take root at the core of its Being. That takes... something more... something transformative... some say hope some say faith er some say suffering but None say; commercial breaks and all they stand for!!
We all have a story. Lies are less believable than the truth . But I won’t lie to be believed

Portsmouth, NH

Will here describe my life& person in short

Baby girl
Belly
I do color LOGOs
Portsmouth from Kittery
We are no more or less than our fellow man.
AMERICANS SEE IS AS AMERICANS DO (HAVEN’T WE EVOLVED PASSED THE APE STAGE?; THEN THINK FOR YOURSELF.)
My new puppy Belly
in many ways it’s easier to believe what justifies your actions or inactions your retaliatory, unethical or immoral intentions. It’s easier to find evidence to support your ‘truths’ which are mere perspectives. What isn’t a perspective is a LIVED TRUTH THAT BEARS EVIDENCE TO ITS OCCURANCE. There is delusional paranoia and there is factual reality which is very inconvenient for governmental entities. So best they just get rid of me. The liability. So says too many state employees. How the feds pay state employees big bucks to whitewash liabilities like me. It’s known s maybe not to you. But that certainly doesn’t mean it’s not true.. So far to speak the truth has seems almost condemned always met with some punitive and whether by being pulled over and an innocuous message been given or some thing deliberately withheld in a passive aggressive manner that can’t be directly linked to what I stated but given the repetition in my knowing of a pattern after a decade of it I know when I’m being acted upon failed or not. It is as though to speak the truth is some aberrant behavior when their lies spread like a virus and snuffed outs ability to receive what I needed to heal. Justice and compassion. Impossible to receive when no one believes you and those that do? Allege it’s not true. Had I been heard, I would not be disabled. This doesn’t mean I blame them, it just means that if i had been left be? I would have been find despite all those whose are accountable lose, would love to avidly contest that. Perhaps God doesn’t grant such the gift of knowing to trust that knowing to those who are only abuse these gifts. It is far less forgivable to know better and act immorally than to do so out of ignorance or a leaner intellect

what wIll become of Us will make the woRld as it wIll be. We have the ppwer to make it a Better place but first we need the truthful inFormation we are never Given. It renders we helpless. Blind in a room we HAVEN’T ecen bedn told what SWITCHED to look for let aLone correctly sWitch

There’s ALWAYS A REASON

On Wed, Oct 28, 2020 at 8:22 PM Julia Assmus <juliaskygame@gmail.com> wrote:

I wrote this in 2015.... long before the last email

It’s all truth. Unfortunately. And ironically the only person who has nothing to hide is the one who has been labeled a criminal and angry that is the only goddamn person and that’s me. I do hope you get my most recent email aconcerning their attempts to get me for iNtent based on past charges in which I committed one , the 2011 ‘evidence’ (whuch really is none) and the fabrication of search history tying me to such activity and research, etc. tho I will NOT BE ARRESTED FOR A FORM OF DOMESTIC terrorism WHICH HAVE NO STATUTE OF LIMITATIONS (suspected of ?) and I wrote the email below for fear of it. I’ve rarely been wrong. They found nothing within my system so they have to fabricate it and they have hacked into my accounts and that was officiated by a detective

(I believe th for solicitation of attempted murder is 8 years. So I have three more. As the AG prosecutes the case AJD is already aware of the fact so can’t be lied to by gradually entities collaborating with the illegalities; but Is that another matter; all this happened; each prosecutor threatened by the state not an on my record in order so that I would not be credible I had the sergeant and innumerable officers call me in 2016 offering me plenty of information knowing that if I filed the report then it would not be taken serious now when I call and ask for information there is silence because they know if I file now they are in deep shit. I mean for a moment there I actually thought they were being kind and felt bad for taking part and disabling me but then I realized no it was actually to ensure I filed at a time I wasn’t credible so that if I filed again when I was it wouldn’t even be looked at...

They assumed I was on A form of governmental assistance and thereby did not have any fourth amendment rights in place but they were grievously wrong and violated my fourth fifth eighth and ninth repeatedly over those eleven days...And then again successfully over a period of nine years

I’m told the feds pay state employees big bucks to white wash liabilities like me... WHY AM I A LIABILITY?!?I’m a liability as I can easily evidence an attempted murder whuch traces directly back to the stage and feds and is directly in alignment with their code of actions in such instances

Falsely implicate

Falsely incriminate

Falsely incarcerated

I was personally in my instance nearly Falsely transfers to federal based on a false felony drug charge. My HR at 32 is the only thing that stopped them. I’d be a liability dead too. So I was released. (I later found out my dog of thirteen years had to be. Fought to the vet because she almost died from heart failure too; a broken heart; who could make this shit up) which they attempted the year before and such was documented by a JUDGE IN 2014 and in front of five credible witnesses

Then if that fails and it rarely does (but did with me)

They’ll ensure defamatory charges so you can’t even get a volunteer position nor can explain behavior you have no association with...-‘d THEN then they make it so you cannot a normal charges that you can directly proof weren’t even pressed because each prosecutor is threatened by the state and then if it finally goes before a judge in the record is an old and you are credible to make allegations that will be taken serious that is when you are a major liability and that is why am I after nine years of having outsmarted every goddamn entrapment and that’s the god damn truth

I wanted a normal life but something within has told me to prepare . Be ready

I wouldn’t hold the respect and regard of the state police attorney general if this were not the case nor would I be able to spell out exactly what I have to them the (from 2011 on in short 4 min summary of what happened from 201 on and why ; tho the AG has already been involved as he signs off on all search and seizures and was aware this one went very wrong) the day before to force charges only for those two Foster’s is to be dropped as opposed to me getting charged with any kind of felony perjury so if this is the man who is going to prosecute the case of the attempted solicited Muder and he is already aware of all the instances and legality‘s you better fucking believe they would Assume their asses are on fire. But I wanted to move forward. Until they begin to follow me hack and then invade my privac, phone lines and computers

NO WARRANT AS FAR AS I KNOW

Lastly they go to

Defamation

So that when you are finally credible enough to get a job every W-4 form you signed the state nose goes directly to that source defames you and you think I’m gonna be credible over the feds and the state no I’m not going three days every time each time unable to form any connections do the things that are not true and are not in any way a reflection of my person after 10 years of this I can no longer handle it and I need something to be done about it

And it goes on....

I have become federally disabled in effect of the two car accidents caused in direct effect by state misconduct and the second one was the solicited attempted murder so justice is due. I go to DHMC and I literally have 10 severe medical conditions now in effect of all that happened in the negligence because the police force to find the original report so I could never get proper help DHMC neurologist said seven years later that I almost died on the floor of the Brentwood jail and my brain atrophy to that of an 85-year-old that I now have intractable temporal lobe epilepsy . That’s just the icing on THR cake. The cake that became my life and I didn’t make.

If not only for the reason to cement this so that they stop messing in my life and making me always have to fear that I’ll be arrested for life for INTENT I DID NOT HAVE NOR WHAT I did not do

On Fri, Nov 27, 2015 at 2:18 PM Julie Assmus <juliaskygame@gmail.com> wrote:

I was unable to report to the authorities who had conspired across five counties within a span of three years because a federal agent who initiated an unwarranted investigation told them to. By means of defamation and otherwise they acted in accordance and for ever. I write you all Because the crimes committed are by local failed entrapment they would have more to cover.

I was wrongly suspected of domestic terrorism and subsequently terrorized for four years after two initially dreadful events. T The commitment. And the accident. I could not report to those directly involved in what was initially Grievous Human rights violations under torturous circumstances for seven days, released with not even an explanation. They found no evidence. AS opposed to admit his wrong I suspect he did 'clean up' and repeatedly there attempts failed. I HAD TO. And did use social media as a tool to publicize what was happening as a means of protection. There are several progressions who believe and know as well what happened as incredulous as it was and still is

I am a 36woman declared disabled in effect f the very conditions caused by misconduct on behalf of the State and federal authorities over the span of four years because of by police misconduct and brutality of my disabled person. For over three years Until my eleven day false incarceration last year. The unwarranted investigation in which the agent was responsible for my being cut from my mere four days prior to being extracted and falsely arrested, transferred twice and detained while they still withheld my medications caused severe distress ax wa the plan. The withdrawal was premeditated as was all else as can be proven by original documents from my psychiatrist who under advisement if this agent told him to cut me off from all ER access for 'drug seeking' (as anyone who'd had a heart attack would seek help from a withdrawal literally considered INHUMANE within this country

This is the last ‘story’ I thought would be mine

My psychiatrist was also told an insane story to my parents so they'd commit me (my fiancé was present and saw me only step back and say something like you can't just do that without warning . He then called the EMTS and demanded they bring me in but they refused bc they found nothing wrong with me. But now withdrawal was inevitable and day four is when it peaked and eight officers came to my door to take me in cuffs hands and feet to interrogate me for two days and nights before transferring me again. I recall begging the officers who were suspicious of these 'other' men (agents?), to please be the ones to transfer me as opposed to have me go in that black SUV. There was something very wrong as my parents Walked away. I didn't react or wasn't provoked as they'd hoped a I was put on level one instead of where they could likely pursue more interrogative techniques. My psych had formerly worked here and had Full access. I was beyond terrified. My psych was also told by the agent to contact PCP to tell her under no circumstances to respons to me so after my car accident caused by police brutality (I have no charges as of two months ago) when they favor ares the report and ended up in jail I almost lost my life. They spoke of an nwarrented transfer the two men outside my cell hoping their superior would allow them to do the strip search while I believed I was going to die. I was later told I was very lucky to be alive them not having had it me In ICU where they would have thoug then they wouldn't have the opportunity to falsely transfer me as they would discuss after every false arrest

I have been proclaimed by the state as disabled due to the very conditions caused by four years of being terrorized. then my attorney disappear about five months ago despite three professionals attempting to seek him out. He is no where. No where (i totally had forgotten about this;)

No one knows where he is or why is has disappeared. He is a reputable attorney in NH

Last year after three years of ongoing harassment and misconduct I was falsely incarcerated for eleven days then credited them bc Doug my fiancé went through the Supreme Court to speak with an investigator. One day later he was pulled over by a state trooper who remained unidentifiable by spotlight and simply said

‘Shut up or you'll end up like her’

This means the innumerable officers from state, local and federal agencies are the ones who are responsible the state police having been directed t falsify a deadly police report under again the agents direction or some superiors. Despite being rear ended at 85mph according to PD ON THR scene no one then answer r our falls and despite it being black and white the flimsy two page report stated he had no contributing action

They falsified the report for a reason

The State police would not do this unless instructed from above. This agent is dangerous and I believe nearly had me killed before a trial that was sprung on me after I called the concord system and they said I had nothing pending...As time went on, more police departments became involved as now has the state, their believe in their immunity not threatened by taking action when directed by an agent. But when that agent is a felon who is guilty of innumerable human rights violations and conspiring, defamation, malfesceance, solicitation and many others, they are conspiring as well and perhaps they found that out. Again I obtained every original report I'm. It intimidated that I can’t prove what I can... DOJ can help me with as from what was said to my fiancé it was obvious I was incarcerated so I'd be a number behind bars with a crazy story as opposed a reputable member of society whose word may be taken as credible. Dozens of local state and federal agents conspired and those entities are not safe to disclose any of this too. I made a lot what was occurred to me public by social media for means of self protection. I knew it would ruin my reputation but I felt I had no choice and it did come to use. More than once. I do ask that you reconsider as has been verified by several professionals I was put under protection or told to relocate after last year despite the nine malicious prosecutions I walked from every one and my ussearch said two months ago that there was nothing

Not even a charge

Meanwhile I was prosecuted for nearly a dozen of them. Why? Bc the TRUTH AND MY TELLING IT AND BEING BELIEVED WAS NOT SOMETHING THESE PEOPLE WHO COMMITTED GRIEVOUS FEDERAL AND FELONY OFFENSES WHICH NEARLY VOST ME MY LIFE AND FREEDOM

PLEASE help. Thank you.

Julie

The email Below was written this month; November, 2020 five years after the one above, sensical or not (I don’t alter my evidence) ; note the difference and similarity and the fact I’d just been bashed in the head when I wrote that last email!

Need to find email

Special Agent Assmus

There isn’t much Not to appreciate about the town of Portsmouth, how it tips into Maine, at first subtly then far more obtuse my as two more bridges were made/ we were officially connected the land of the free right around the corner from the seaweed snelling creek running straight into the ocean by the old mill reataurant. The same as it ever was, as is Maine, it’s appearance smell of seaweed, salt and a hint of something always sweet with N.H. a seemingly steady beat right across theee bridges now \+ somehow I miss the family vacations to Ogunquit, their sanctity in that there was only that rumbling old green bridge to crossS almost like some right or passage. But the land remains the same _’d hopefully that will remain

Not to be bossy but please do click on links; you will be Quite SURPRISED. I have not one Idea in Which way

One of many experimental color prints
A collaboration of many of my experimental color art photography
When we stop believing, we live without sound Purpose or Reason

Will put the writing here. You know I got it;)

A few landscape Photos
The docks in Portsmouth, NH
My experience has shown me truth is stranger than fiction

Break

A collaboration of many of my color prints

NEEDS LINKs HERE!

Writing here.

Many Maine bridges. This would be one of them.

More color
Collaboration
Who the fuck is who. It’s not an answer you need search far for.... the answer is in me as it is in you. What you hate in me you hate ij you & what you idealize, you envy or would like too?
Belly (I had to put my baby girl Pippin down. At 14; she was done and in pain.:)

I am as you. First genetically 99.9% the same as the rest of the population the blood the rest of us subject to seemingly anonymous and obscure circumstance, some we blame on others, some on ourselves, our bringing plays a huge role in personality structure and later life social relations and expectations ... And additionally other genetic and variable factors but again that only makes it 01% of our supposed diversity. The actuality of who we are One wanted to say have the same needs wants primary desires and drives. The difference is in how we learn how we are conditioned and genetically influenced to react and respond to certain environmental factors and stressors. And whether certain things are perceived as stressors or not. Everyone is different but not in fundamental ways.

I am a product of my blood upbringing and experiences and experiences integrated at first subjectively and then further distance more objectively. In other words I am more able to respond to what happened in my past them react to it just disabling emotional connectives, that when once disrupted or threatened and lack of adequate social support system can bring up a variety of behavioral disturbances. With adequate social support I do not care what others think and I never have and I say that as someone with autism who was literally not directly clued in with the desire to connect to others more than what I was interested in, end it took a lot of experimentation and years to finally find out what that is. To know what the senses alone can not tell us.

Portsmouth
This life is just a rehearsal for not just eternal but the next life into which you’re born and given a chance.

I am very excited about a new process in which I can make my photos as below and a lot more. I am going to have a lot of fun. I’ve been doing this ten years and even with some simple apps my world of photography is forever expanding. And I like that! A lot!!

  • Because I am you and you are me. And if that reality isn’t palatable? It’s you, not me.
An ‘experimental’ app I’m working with. I always use my word to begin(and (obviously) END, with;)
Off the docks; fisheye style; fitting; considering;)
One of my first photos taken before I had figured out the settings on a new DSLR.

Shall I introduce myself here. I’m not too different than you. When it all comes down to me, stripped of all layers and titles, should we all be in an unfortunate situation in which we are all one, under a police state, no one having or being in any way what Americans have come to believe is superior (or not) but ultimately has nothing to do with character. We are not a country of the free when we are not thinking for OURSELVES. And intelligence isn’t the regurgitation of information you’ve already heard but perhaps instead postulations and opinions not yet read or heard but instead... original? And those who voice them will be the outcasts, the rebels, The ones with ‘no idea what’s gojngt on’ or simply ‘crazy’ but since when did being bang on about what has is and will go on crazy? Perhaps because such genius isn’t recognized until the person has passed. So is the life of the greatest of minds and masters their work hardly acknowledged during their ‘waking’ hours. ; written just now off the cuff; Julie Assmus

Ditto below
Looking out across a marsh in OGUNQUIT
Ogunquit Maine Beach at a restaurant I used to work
The docks In Portsmouth, N.H

I am as you. First genetically 99.9% the same as the rest of the population the blood the rest of us an on the molars circumstance of bringing additionally other genetic and variable factors but again that only makes it 01% of our supposed diversity. The actuality of Romain we are One wanted to say have the same needs wants primary desires and drives. The difference is in how we learn in our conditioned and genetically influence to react and respond to certain environmental factors and stressors. And whether certain things are perceived as stressors or not.

I am the product of my conditions of my blood upbringing and experiences and experiences integrated at first subjectively and then further distance more objectively. In other words I am more able to respond to what happened in my past them react to it just disabling emotional connectives, that when once disrupted or threatened and lack of adequate social support system can bring up a variety of behavioral disturbances. With adequate social support I do not care what others think and I never have and I say that as someone with autism who was literally not directly clued in with the desire to connect to others more than what I was interested in, end it took a lot of experimentation and years to finally find out what that is. To know what the senses alone can not tell us.

Taken four years ago in Atlanta, GeorgiaH

I have a voracious curiosity, knowing always there was a reason why behind something and behind that another why my favorite question as a child of course then being WHY to even every answer given. I can only imagine the degree of annoyance

Biddeford, Maine

How does one begin to tell a story of what they are not allowed to tell. When I say allowed, I mean to tell a story in so far as there is no punishment for it. Whether by the legal entities or those whose interventions and collaborations have already caused much grief. Short of the actuality being told, I'll only be known as a false version of myself. And with a pending third contrast MRI for liver cancer? I don't feel as though I any longer have much time to waste

For some time I did, thinking in about 5–10 years The story could be told most objectively but everything happens for a reason and I suppose it's meant to be told though now. I am according to certain sources who do not want to be held accountable, spoken of as the antithesis of my character and that has been going on so unfortunately long that it is almost become their truth their reality what they actually believe, generally what they need to, to feel safer, in delusion a could not afford for one moment. An army of one against an inexhaustible one. They weren’t gonna quite and to this day, this stick with it.

The docks in Portsmouth, NN

Had I not become a near liability to them but my heart almost drooling, I would have been transported and lost within the system. Worst and more likely still was the o koi’s end of ending up in some camp within or outside this country that aren’t known abojt and where the Geneva Act isn’t in effect. Given I had been formerly suspected of a form of domestic terrorism I had no association with, their need to incriminate me was as great as their liability would he should I become free and credible. Though I did survive that instance that has far more to it than less, there was more to come that would prompt me to have no choice but to see thru would kill someone they knew was innocent in order not to face the consequences of their ongoing criminal misconduct, but more important still, their Repeated human rights violations

in many ways it's easier to believe what justifies your actions or inactions your retaliatory, unethical or immoral intentions. So far to speak the truth has almost always meant with some consequence, a message; one meaaahe, shut up, or else...and Why Would this prize surprise me considering my ex fiancé had been pulled over the seventh day he attempted to get me out of a false incarceration, pleading he never filed The order against me. What would have had me released same day or hour that matter if circumstances WERE as they SEEMED. But WERE NOT. And were it not for my body going into shock on the eleventh day and my heart nearly stopping the DOJ never would have intervened and the I would have been transferred to federal to become another number lost within the system. That crazy guy or woman with that fucked up conspiracy theory as oppose to take accountability for her intentions and criminality? Right? WRONGz but when the state makes yoh out that way and you have severe undiagnosed brain atrophy, epilepsy and heart failure are a routine at the ER; who else would they believe? Me? No . Not until they proved to be in the wrong to the attorney general. And it was finally dollowed up on.

Justice and compassion does heal

More color work
The lake
The mother of all clouds
The Marsh

So yes, this WAS primarily A page for my photos. Now it is part blog, part photo show. Another page will be devoted to what occurred as it comes to mind repeatedly in fits and bursts. (New note; apparently that page is this one) What I’ve attempted to document so many times... and have and so now when I do so it is sounds mechanical. Because I’ve felt the need to explain for my life’s sake what happened or as it runs through my mind those little pieces unwanted, often crowding out any ability for productive thought or non reactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever. But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which come in part to shape our life, or is it instead what we make of them. How we interpret what happens to us determines how hard or soft we become. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self love, we learn to interpret others deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in the face of open . If we learn to self loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or perhaps it is all the will of God. For me to see it differently at this point would put me nowhere other than wanting to be the way I was before. And my brain won’t allow for it. Not matter the degree of meditation. The only joke I have? CBD and psychedelics for healing such extensive trauma and damage as well as an atrophied brain that is epileptoc. The last EKG showed Every time my brain to try to go to sleep major frontal lobe spikes, meaning I don’t ever get deep sleep according to the neurologist. Justice and compassion heal. Lack of them along with lack of any medical care? That’ll kill anyone? Even the strongest. When I should have had help I was being overtaken by entities I had been conditioned were there to protect me. With a brain injury so bad I was commuting every morning for two years. I’m sorry. But it’s been horrific and I still struggle significantly. How come I can’t tell my truth tol? Because it not happy like you? Ok

Portsmouth, NH
Ogunquit, Maine, alrightsresvrd

I will continue my story here....

Portsmouth, NH

Just a thought of Two; Who am I? Who are We? Are we products of our genetics upbringing environment. Oh yes we have determined all three. But ask yourself in this land of the free how you define yourself. Is it even possible to See yourself amidst the labels you’ve cluttered atop your character? Have you mistaken your roles you play for who you are? Because who we are is determined not by what others see, but what they do Not. Character is determined by Intention. Not action as that we see perhaps is enacted solely for an audience. What determines character is what we do and why WHEN NO one will know or see. What these choices are at these times, that is who you are. Far more the person behind closed doors than the one who presents themselves for an audience. It is the ones who forget there is one, that is perhaps the most genuine. The one lost in thought most trustworthy.’ It is the black wolf in sheep’s clothing often ensuring you feel special to them so you are more pliable. . And ask yourself. What is yours? Don’t interject all that you feel you need to be. Instead for once be honest with at least yourself; because frankly I get tired of interacting with those who have forgotten their true character and know onky how to soeak I’d whay they love already heard known and seen. I’m not interested in who you Want to BE, who you’ve deluded yourself you are? I want to know who that really IS. If you can’t tell yourself don't expect those true to themselves to believe you.

Some old work
Ogunquit, Maine & Newer Portsmouth Bridge
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  • page for my photos. But also for my wordsZ Another will be devoted to what occurred as it comes to mind repeatedly any how in fits and bursts. What I’ve attempted to document so many times... and have and so now when I do so it is sounds mechanical. Because I’ve felt the need to explain for my life’s sake what happened or as it runs through my mind those little pieces unwanted, often crowding out any ability for productive thought or non reactive behavior. But these pieces are there to form a whole, one I had to swallow. One that changed the course of my life forever. But isn’t that what life is. A stream of events, over which we do or don’t have control, which come in part to shape our life, or is it instead what we make of them. How we interpret what happens to us determines how hard or soft we become. How we are conditioned. If we are taught self love, we learn to interpret others deficiencies as our own, allowing the unconscious projections are inevitable in the face of open . If we learn to self loathe, we absorb the defects of others without any sense that it is not ours to own. It is many things. Those which come to form what we call life. . And genetics •. Perhaps it is all three. Or perhaps it is all the will of God. For me to see it differently at this point would put me nowhere other than wanting things to be how they were and I? The way I Had been. But that can’t be expected according to my neurologist who says the damage is extensive. What led to that and what happened After happens over a span of eight years and sounds like some Hollywood plot. I have learned of best to tell no one. Until this blog. To continie reading please see link... I have only Just started though I’ve started many times as I said over the last years; just get stuck on a traumatic part and CANT SEEM TOGETHER OUT. then it’s too much and next time? I end up starting from scratch. That has gone on for years. This is a new ‘tactic’, I’d you will. Thank you. Julie Assmus

To much to say. About the world today. I am unable to load new photos . It is complicated as to why. I’ll try reloading the Spark Page App. See what happen!

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Portsmouth Bridge

Ad lib: so much to know so little to know all there is with the senses alone. Einstein himself first proposed we only sense 3% of reality with the senses, sight , the eyes, ears, the scent of the flesh and the rose. We know. But we yet we truly know nothing more than 3% of the reality revealed by the means of the senses of the dictates and norms a society has mandated. Our human senses alone, lulling US into a mindlessness so we forget every past future and generation has forged paths unforeseen due to the use of what has ensured they demonize and schedule. I do not speak of ‘drugs’ alone, but the stuff of the earth which were the very first civilians on this earth to devote their entire energies and resources into building the pyramids, structures in worship of Gods before religion was even a concept, let alone a structure set by Catholicism, its primary instructional purpose being in controlling the masses by means of fear. Doesn’t sound too spiritual to me, nor in the vein of a Christ we cite from the Bible in both Catholicism and many other religions as well, each their lan dams. Too many to be right thereby ensuring they are all ‘wrong’. There is no use in choosing, when that energy could be devoted to true worship of Christ and Allah, God, whatever you’d like to call .. Him... Her.. It’s your gig, not only you walk it. Don’t condemn others for playing by the same rules as you, just having chosen a different hand, or more likely been dealt the one they are now in practice of. A condition of their life. As they live it, just like me. Just like you. Being taken on different paths as tangents doesn’t change the fact that on a molecular level we are, fact backed by extensive scientific proof, 99.9% biologically the same. As human beings.

Mystic Illumination

My New England Profressional Photography Webpage (one of them) : ever work in progress

A collection of well a lot of things really....

There are quite a few who have used my photos. So I am trying to be careful and watermark all of them

Lucy in the Sky

Quick BIO; I Am as You, You are as me, though we may have lived differences stories. We are the same, save the projections we disown within ourselves, giving us the illusion of difference, but what i an see in you , is in me. Whether i like you or not. So the more i like people, the more i like me. The more indifferent i am towards them, the more i am numb, caught up in a past i cant seem to speak much of. Without being judged, feeling more alone. So i am alone but no more alone with those who have stories you feel you can not share perhaps because they make you feel different, wont be believed, or that others just dont care. No matter, do not judge a person based on what chapter of their life you walked in on. Unless youve known someone from their birth and walked within the intimacies of all their stories, created from context of their life, imagery and their own imagination, you know nothing other than your own projections based on whatever needs and desires you may have, whether they are conscious or not. And when we are quick to dismiss or idealize, that only means we see what we would rather not or would like to be. To see others clearly, we need not look out but in. To only look outwards and never in , is to live in delusion, distraction and is, in my opinion, the easy way out. A life on automatic pilot flown by societal dictates and judgements of others in accordance along the way, not realizing that there is little importance in ‘accomplishments’ as outside this country and it’s dictates, it may well not even be seen as such. To live in accordance only with the dictates of society and judge others according is disingenuous and the other is lost in whatever they believe themselves to be; the person disguised in something other than Them. They have lost themselces to an idealism where accomplishments matter more than their effect on others. But in the end, it matters only whom we affect for the better. That is why i feel the need make the distinction between their delusion and reality clear. Otherwise I’ll lose myself too.

Between Heaven and Earth
XPerimental

Ive won a few awards on many of the photography sites though honestly, i do not believe any award is truly of value unless given in a more ‘Real’ context such as by an actual magazine or gallery, I have been featured in Portsmouth Magazine. I will post the link below. If it doesn’t take you automatically to photos, scroll down to the Photo Contest, click there and i should be the first couple photos down

A little bit of variation
All Photos were taken and edited by myself over the last few years; I did some black and white street photography for around a year
Street photography Work
The original and the edited
Another example
Taken with an iPhone prior to having an iPhone

This Page Is an Ongoing Work in Progress and Likely Willl be For some Time. At least a few times a week, this link is updated and different photos are exchanged for previous ones. I want the ones of highest quality but there are still so many to go through...please bear with me as I get this Site in ORDER, Thank you. Regards, Julie Assmus

Lush

I have noted that there have been other sites that have my photos for sale. That is why i am so protective and watermark them. I do not know exactly how to protect them but i know my photos are all i have right now due to my disabilities together with other extraneous circumstances. Please understnad. These photos took a lot of effort and arent to be stolen. Julie Assmus

First Grid

Everyone has a story . Has lived what they have lived. I have had a blessed and wonderful life one that would not at all prepare me for what was coming. What i should have, or rather, was meant to, become prepared for. Perhaps we Do have seven lifetimes to get it right. What right? To be the kindest and most humble sheep we can be. That doesn’t mean to follow the herd but rather in this world, it would mean the opposite. To follow your true nature and intuition as oppose to gain bias and judgement by means of news broadcast, anything that you do not see or witness yourself. If you do not, don’t believe or hold skeptical though we have been rboiggihjly conditioned to not question our news. We should question it and never watch it. Government owned. They themselves jusy ohppets to the 1% wealthiest. I realized after and during what i experienced, most of such aired crap was 90% bullshit. That which would take us from whay was happening airbon our own country by focusing on the impoverishmemts and destruction of others Distraction from what was really happening within out country, small enough a matter so as not to be noted. But a matter which, in a world without faith, will spread as fast as communism, their new leader no God but a man who is the antithesis of. If it were any different, than what happened to me, what is happening to millions and millions before me, would not be. And whay happens, most often untold, shows the forecast alleged country of the ‘free’ is anything but sunny.

What life had handed me prior to 2011, however, in no way prepared me for what did happen but that was for a reason. Those worst fears we can’t imagine or have never thought of rarely happens...perhaps that’s why it never Fully did all come to fruition, because i couldnt imagine any such outcome. What you never imagine, what has never consciously ever thought of, will not come to fruition. Energy attracts like and what we can not conceive or can not believe, as in my instance, i had no idea what was happening to Know What to believe, it will Be the way you will it to be. At least for me. I have an story i feel victim to and those who see clearly. See the same way though I prefer not to and remind myself whay matters ar the end of life is not what we accomplish that matters but whom we’ve added fed for the better. But I was in circumstances in which my freedom and my life has been spared and that is what i am grateful for in face of the fact that 95& of victims of what i was a victim of, do not make it through. I do not credit myself, but some grace greater than myself at those times unexpected (yet I was always and still am hyper vigilant) there were certain entrapments and ‘accidents’ which should have caused a loss of my freedom or directly my death. They were not taken. Repeatedly they should have been by the fact, and by every other way those whom wished for my disappearance had not only wished for but planned and been sure would be carried out effectively. This happens when state and federal entities are responsible for human right violations, grievous ones that would end their jobs and possibly land them in jail. We all know no official lands in prison. And there are many reasons for that. One of which is to incriminate the one whom they were 100% wrong about to absolve themselves of their original felonious behavior. And when their entrapments thereafter to incriminate me repeatedly fail? Those which if had me on a felony drug charge would allow them to get me intent to distribute what I hadn’t intended to even purchase to begin with. They had nothing when they came at me. No EVIDENCE< No judges signature, Not a WARRENT. Nothing and took me away for eleven days anyway, cuffed, shackled. I hadn’t committed any offense and hadn’t any idea why they were there. When they found nothing, then they were guilty of IMMENSE human rights violations and the police had chosen to collarbone so i was a HUGE liability in face of being 100%innocent. And they knew it. As their entrapments repeatedly failed, more then invariably become involved, you become an even greater liability and you (as in one or I) are even in further danger. It is as though my job for the past seven years my job has been 24/7, no credit, instead the complete opposite and has only gotten harder the more i am able to I get through whatever entrapment was planned, as then? More officials become involved and invested in my becoming incriminated so i am not a liability to them either. EACH STATE PROSECUTOR has been THREATENED by the state even tho the charges on my record can EASILY BE PROVEN TO BE FALSE with the original records as oppose to the ones they manipulated. I have all the originals. I always will. Someone will always have access and will release if anything happens to me. All was quiet for two years then suddenly the police have made sudden appearances in my life for reasons that have no backing Whatsoever, It is harassing and i am writing in to the DOJ explaining the situation. Last night, for example, i was pulled over one mile from my home and searched for no reason, person, car and all, he said it smelled like MJ. I have a decimal Card and i never even smoke it. IT is no coincidence that this starts up months before the official annulment; the one that would allow me to be credible so that my complaints would be taken serious; well, then i will have my attorney instead be my voice if it continues to be taken). But this is not the series and already I am headed....IN. So I best stop here (all I write will be directly linked to links of the origin al reports prior to their manipulations)

Need to waternark

What happened changed my life, direction of it and increased my faith. I surrendered all anger every interaction with officials, no hint of animosity so that they not once could get one thing on me (perhaps wh they had to arrest me in my own home for a crime impossible to be arrested in your home by, let alone when the alleged plaintiff filed the order on the neighbors specifying their names (yes, I have a copy of that).

Need to watermark

Ive begun to create a series in which i am asked direct questions about the events and five tactical answers bac by actual evidence, whether a file, MRI, expert witness or other. There will he links to back up my truth. A truth stranger than fiction that either overwhelms the person who hears of it, or is simply been disbelieved entirely. It’s easier that way. Well this made no sense to me but I was subjected to it anyhow. And it was as real as the consequences, my now physically and ij all other ways handicapped, the staye having made it impossible for me to have any short or change at a normal life. Why? To cover their ongoing indiscretions, illegalities and outright human rights violations. I was blacklisted medically, so the damage they knew their negligence has caused wasjt foimd. And when it was? Seven years later? They began acting against me once again. Due to the fact that now I have evidence and could easily file suit against innumerable establishments, profressionals, official and legal entities. In a heart beat. But not if my record indicates I’m of sordid character. Which is exactly what the officials promptly set out to ensure. So that I would he discredited and any annulment wouldn’t happen or as my attorney said the prosecutor like would be made ‘uncomfortable’ by state officials. Stay times for a link to The Series. Coming soon; in Parts.

ALL DELETED PHOTOS WILL BE REPOSTED ONCE WATERMARKED

More Links to my other webpages will be placed here; including Part I, Interrogation Series

Ogunquit, Maine

In the infancy of my photography ‘career’, the did a lot of experimentation with color prints and various editing apps. Here are some of the results. I have yet to return to that lost ‘art’. Perhaps it will prove more ‘popular’ than the landscape black and whites. One can never know for sure.

All photography for sale. Please see my site for more info. https://new-england-profressional-phdotography.business.site

I take photos when I became disabled in 2011. I’m first shot cloud and landscapes then moved onto more architectural type photography. Living in the Portsmouth area has been wonderful to me and I wouldn’t want to live anywhere else than this part of the country that I am eager to capture as best I can. And I would love to share it with you. I have just begun this site today, August 24th, 2018 . So bear with me. I might make it a blog and photography site. Who knows. We will see.

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Please enjoy the slide show below. An assortment of my photography

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