The journey towards redemptionby michaela mcadams: 6th
Most people attempt to cover their dark pasts with good deeds to make themselves feel whole. In the book, "The kite Runner", a fiction novel by Khaled Hosseini, he main character, Amir struggles to redeem his past mistakes. Throughout the novel Hosseini illustrates the patterns that Amir continuously goes through. These three stages are, an act that is unhorable and unloyal, grieving, and the attempt to reconcile.
Like every human, Amir makes mistakes. What sets him apart from most others is that he doesn't learn from them until it's too late. The first error that Amir makes in the novel is not preventing his best friend Hassan from being raped. "I opened my mouth, almost said something. Almost. The rest of my life might have turned out different if I had. But I didn't. I just watched." Not rescuing Hassan from rape had been the worst and most impactful decision that Amir had made. The second fault that Amir made was that after he watched Hassan get raped he later on couldn't handle the guilt and set up Hassan to make it look like he had stolen from Amir. "Did you steal the money? Did you steal Amir's watch? Hassan said yes. I flinched like I had been slapped. My heart sank and I almost blurted out the truth." The guilt that Amir felt was too intense so he betrayed Hassan yet again. Everyone has faults and messes up but Amir needs to learn to take ownership and correct his mistakes.
When a person performs an act that is against their morals or unethical, they tend to have grief or regret shortly after. After Amir betrayed Hassan he stopped talking to Hassan and was rude because of the immense guilt that Amir felt. "For a few weeks, I preoccupied myself with gravity and momentum, atoms and cells, instead of thinking about Hassan and what happened to him." Amir tried to cover up what he did by attempting to distract himself. Amir also experienced grief when Hassan left. Amir was grieving because he lost his best friend. "I was sorry, but I didn't cry and I didn't chase the car." He wanted to chase the car and stop Hassan but there is always a consequence for a persons bad decisions. Amir's consequence was not only loosing Hassan but also the regret and grief he felt afterwards.
Following the stages of grief is the need for redemption. When a person fixes something they feel relieved. Amir hasn't been able to do this for years and is on edge. Amir try's to resolve by attempting to retrieve sohrab from the Taliban. "I'm looking for a boy. I understand he is here with you. His name is sohrab." Amir knew it would be daring to ask the Taliban to give him sohrab but he knew that he must in order to payback Hassan and to atone for his sins. Amir receives a brutal beating from a childhood bully and also the rapist of Hassan. Amir believes he deserves the beating but in the end he receives and adopts sohrab. "Do you want me to run that kite for you? His Adam's apple rose and fell as he swallowed. I thought I saw him nod. 'for you a thousand times over', I heard myself say." Amir needed redemption for his past mistake and through that redemption he has a son who reminds him of Hassan in a good way and in a sense has his best friend back.
Everyone needs redemption in one way or another. Amir has a new found peace even though the journey to get there was anything but that. Good things don't come easy but in the end the reward is worth the struggle.