"The unqualified truth is, that when I loved Estella with the love of a man, I loved her simply because I found her irresistible. Once for all; I knew to my sorrow, often and often, if not always, that I loved her against reason, against promise, against peace, against hope, against happiness, against all discouragement that could be. Once for all; I loved her nonetheless because I knew it, and it had no more influence in restraining me, than if I had devoutly believed her to be human perfection." (181)
He loved Estella, even though he new it was not good for him. He liked the idea of love with Estella.
"Pip dear old chap, life is made of ever so many partings welded together, as I may say, and one man's a blacksmith, and one's a whitesmith, and one's a goldsmith, and one's a coppersmith. Diwisions among such must come, and must be met as they come. If there's been any fault at all to-day, it's mine. You and me is not two figures to be together in London; nor yet anywheres else but ain't that I am proud, but that I want to be right, as you shall never see me no more in these clothes. I 'm wrong in these clothes. I'm wrong out of the forge, the kitchen, or off th' meshes. You won't find half so much fault in me if you think of me in my forge dress, with my hammer in my hand, or even my pipe. You won't find half so much fault in me if, supposing as you should ever wish to see me, you come and put your head in the forge window and see Joe the to the old work. I'm awful dull, but I hope I've beat out something nigh the rights of this at last. And so God bless you, dear old Pip. old chap , God bless you!"(175)
Pip wants to bring Joe into his world, but Joe does not like pip's world. Joe seams out of place in London. So he tells Pip if he wants to Joe then he has to go to Joe's house.
Dreams/ Hopes/ Plans
"She had adopted Estella, she had as good as adopted me, and it could not fail to be her intention to bring us together. She reserved it for me to restore the desolate house, admit the sunshine into the dark rooms, set the clocks a going and the cold hearths a blazing, tear down the cobwebs, destroy the vermin—in short, do all the shining deeds of the young Knight of romance, and marry the Princess." (181)
Pip has an unhealthy obsession with Estella. So his brain goes off and believe's that Miss Havisham is his benefactor and that she is helping him along so that he can marry Estella.
Never let the Idea of something cause you to end a relationship with your friends and family.
At the end of the selection, he meats his benefactor the convict. Know up until this he thought his benefactor was Miss Havisham, and that she wanted him to marry Estella. So know that he learned this his world has begun to crash around him. He regrets losing touch with Joe and Bitty.