Inner Critic: Honestly, I've had some trouble finding a time catching myself in this mindset. However, after my second Econ test, I did find myself thinking "what's the point. I'm not good at Econ and I won't ever be". It was honestly pretty depressing, but I didn't stay in that mindset very long. I quickly snapped out of it and set up a time to meet with my uncle, who teaches from the same textbook over at Wofford.
Inner Defender: I missed the deadline for one of my English blog posts and thought to myself "well I couldn't have gotten it done anyways, it's a huge assignment and I've had too many this week already, I would've shut down". One of the dangers form thinking this way is that it makes you feel like a victim of sorts, blinding you from the real problem: yourself. You cannot entirely blame yourself, but you need to be honest enough to admit that you could have adjusted your pattern in order to succeed. Recently I've started detailing out times dedicated to school, rest, and then a social life. By doing this, it helps me focus on getting my work done in time so that I have the chance to socialize and "recharge" from the day.
Inner Guide: After going through the "inner critic" phase, I thought about the situation and took assessment of what happened. Instead of dwelling on it, I called my uncle since he knows Economics like the back of his hand. I brought him the test, some practice problems, and a website with some formulas and asked him to help me out. This seriously boosted my confidence moving forward, and definitely plan on making appointments with people knowledgeable in these fields so that I may succeed.
If I stop to examine my thought process, I see myself in each of the three “mindsets”. Even though I have moments where I place the blame either entirely on myself or direct it towards something unrelated, I believe that overall I fall under the “inner guide” description. When I make a mistake, the first thing I do is think “OK. I messed up. How do I carry on from this? What is the next step to fixing this problem?” The problem for me, however, is following through with the solutions. Even if I know the solution to whatever problem is in front of me, I tend to procrastinate or avoid starting the solution’s progress. In that area, I fall under the "inner defender" mindset and find myself making excuses for why I couldn't get a certain assignment done, rarely blaming my own lack of time-management.
For example, I got a bad grade on my first economics test last semester, but instead of going to the professor and asking him for help on the subjects I did not understand, I kept on doing what I did the first time, leading to another bad test. After the second test, however, I did convince myself to go meet with the professor and ask him for how to prepare for the next tests so that I could salvage my grades in the class. It worked, and I went from having an F in the class to getting a C. Not a great success, but it allowed me to move on to the next level of economics and the experience was a wake-up call telling me to listen to that “inner guide” earlier on instead of waiting until the last minute.